distroyed one Posted March 9, 2007 Share Posted March 9, 2007 My father died two weeks ago.. Got a flue, then pneumonia and doctors say that heart couldn't make it through the illness and all those medications.. They say "oh what can you do, he was old".. We lived together, my mother, father and I, no brothers, sisters.. Here, in my country doctors are monsters.. At first no one from the ambulance wanted to come for a visit.. They said they don't have time, and it is nothing serious.. My father had 82 years, had diabetes, weak heart, and you don't prescribe the same things to boy of 20 years and to man of 82.. I called for a visit doctor from a private hospital, he diagnosed pneumonia ad gave him a prescriptions, some antibiotics, he also said that it is not a serious condition.. There wasn't any improvement and my aunt found one doctor in state hospital.. He supposed to intervene that my father even come to hospital, usually they say to older patients that there is no bed available.. I gave money to doctor so he will treat my dad good, brought presents to nurses so they will keep him clean and take care of him.. There is allowed just one visit during the day, it lasts one hour so I couldn't be around.. Eventually even those visits were canceled because of flue epidemics.. I tried to enter to hospital and saw my dad that evening, he was like sleeping, couldn't wake him up, didn't try very much, thought that maybe he was tired, found doctor and she said that it is normal condition, he is resting and so on.. In the morning after 4 days in hospital doctor called me and said that my dad passed away and that she is sorry.. I'm so angry, and sad.. I can't help thinking that my father could be alive if I was smarther, found another doctor, found another hospital.. I'm sure that he died because of our terrible medical care, they could save him.. What if his heart was weak, some people was born with weak heart and they live their whole life in such condition.. They could've reanimate him, they could've said that his condition is bad and I would sell everything I have to find that heart for him.. I would give my lungs to kep him breathe.. I could burn that hospital, I wish that those doctors live for 100 years, but that all of their familly members die, so they would live for those 100 years all alone, wondering what they did to deserve it.. I'm full of hate for people who are supposed to heal others, and although they have salaries they take money from patients so they would do their job.. I'm so full of sadness thinking how I could save my father and failed, that he was all alone in hospital, alone and scared.. I was supposed to take care of my parents, to protect them.. They take care of me all the time, during the war, they would gave their life for me.. Now when time came to keep them safe I failed.. It is like you let your child die.. I worked a lot, staying late in office, had a longterm relationship breakup this summer.. I was so nervous all the time and I was preocupied with my own problems didn't pay attention to only two people in this world that love me and care about me.. Quote Link to comment
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