kiama Posted March 5, 2007 Share Posted March 5, 2007 im still not doing ok, im dying. id NEVER kill myself - so please dont think that. AND DONT FREAK OUT... but I have thought that that would be the only thing that would give me satisfaction. dying and leaving him the note that its BECAUSE OF HIM only him, and that he is responsible for a death. he would NEVER get over that. i dont want anything happy for him and i want to ruin every relationship he may have. IM MAD AND IM SAD AND IM SUFFERING. i did everything for him and was SO SO SO SO kind to him and put him first with EVERYTHING. i saw him in everything. yes, i got very frustrated at times and i did slap him remember... but that was only twice due to drunk fighting. I WAS so so so so so so so nice and loving. we were so loving. hands on all the time cuddling. PLEASE this may sound disturbing - but i swear to god id never take my life - trust me.... its just these thoughts............ Quote Link to comment
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