starz4tearz Posted February 26, 2007 Share Posted February 26, 2007 I am worried that I’m either becoming dependant or throwing away my relationship with my current partner. In the past I have started in a full on relationship and everything has been fine but then my partners have become so smitten with me that I lose interest - but continue the relationship because I don't want to hurt them. The last relationship I was in lasted for 3 and a half years, probably 6-10 months of those were happy. I haven't been single ever (over 10 years), as soon as I finish a relationship I find someone else, sometimes I have started seeing other people before breaking off the current relationship. I need to break this cycle otherwise I’m going to destroy this relationship too. I love my current partner - he makes me truly happy. We have only been together for 4 months and things have progressed way too quickly. I feel like I’m following my normal trend which scares me. My partner has never previously been in a serious relationship and the love that he shows for me is stronger than anything I have ever had before. This scares me too. I feel that I am doing something to cause these almost addictive relationships. I feel like I’ve put myself in another relationship because I can't bear to be alone but I also feel like my partner can't cope without me. I have a massive lack in confidence but lately I have been receiving allot more attention than usual, even though I’m happy with my partner I find myself tempted by these other 'proposals'. I have never been more satisfied with anyone so why would I want to play around on him? I approached my partner and told him I wasn't ready for this kind of commitment, that I was scared and needed to be on my own for a bit. It broke his heart. I didn't even last until the end of the day before I was trying to patch things up again - but then the following day I tore him down again. I know I really love him but I can't let go of these concerns and now I’m hesitant to try and talk to him because I can't keep up this emotional rollercoaster. I know there is no answer to my thread but please post your thoughts and experiences. starz4tearz P.S I've been dealing with depression for around 12 years and believe the relationship issues to be linked to this I haven't been able to resolve any of these problems in the past via therapy or meds - i'm still searching for the trigger event. Quote Link to comment
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