mrsirish Posted February 19, 2007 Share Posted February 19, 2007 hi everyone, my friend emailed this to me a few days ago, she has been with her boyfriend for over 6 years, she told me she is going to email the following to him whilst he is at work,i have told her it is a bad idea as it makes her sound needy,but i dont have all the answers, i dont want her to make a mistake because they are in hindsight a good couple.i just have a bad feeling about it,any input at all? I have been thinking about the future a lot lately, and where my future will even take me. as you know its not the most stable life that i have right now. this is the thing that is going to freak you out..all i can say is we are both adults and we should be able to talk about anything without feeling stupid or wrong. and i swear to god i have kept this to myself for about 6 weeks wondering if i should tell you or not, one day i told myself its not that important, the next i told myself it obviously is as its still on my mind. ok i am going to get the freak you out thing out of the way and then i am going to give you my reasons and hopefully after trying to understand what im saying you might realise that you have no reason to freak out,and you will also understand that i have feelings too and in affect i am only voicing my oppinion,on the other hand you could be yourself, and automatically freak, look at all the bad bits, push me away and turn grey worrying over nothing.....lol. as i said above i have been thinking about the future, well, no, i have been thinking about the past too.Im talking about us here, nobody else is involved just us. I met you when i wasnt looking to meet someone, but yet here we are.you changed my life,however you want to look at it, i mean i got on a plane because of you,you give me confidence to be me, and to go for my goals and try my best,you can ALWAYS make me smile no matter how mad i am with you,you cheer me up no matter how bad it is,i feel free with you,i have never had that connection with someone before and i love it, i love the way we are together,the way we can take the piss,and know when to stop,i can read your mind, this is going to sound corny, but there is nobody else out there that could know me like you do. ok maybe its my age, my hormones,because im a woman,god himself, i dont know, but for the last 6 weeks it has suddenly hit me that i want to settle down with you, take that how you want to, i just realized that you are who i want to be with, there is nobdy else,i am happy and content with you and i can 100% swear to you i would not be missing anything by not sleeping with another man.And i know that when im not with you i want to be with you. I have been fighting these feelings for 6 weeks,telling myself i am wrong for wanting a little bit more from our relationship,but the more it is on my mind the more it is appealing to me,i dont want to feel this way , i really dont because i am happy with what we have right now, i feel really bad because of how i feel and i know i cant help it.what i am trying to say is,you call me mrs already, i want to be your real mrs....... now heres where i explain why you dont have to freak out... just because im feeling this way it doesnt mean we have to act on it, i am not expecting a proposal from you, far from it, i just need you to know how i feel, and to maybe find out where you are as far as all of this is concerned. just because i am feeling this way it doesnt mean i am ready to run away next weekend and put a ring on your finger, it just means i am THINKING about it. the main thing for me is, because i have been thinking about it for the past few weeks, i have realised that where i may be having these feelings, you might not share the same feelings about it that i do, i have accepted that, and its no big deal. I dont want a proposal, i dont want to get married next month,next year,or even in the next five years,all i am trying to say is,SOMEDAY i would love to share your name, if you dont feel the same thats ok,i just want you to know whats on my mind, and you dont have to worry, im not counting down the days , you know me,i dont get excited everytime we pass a jewellers,and yes from talking to you briefly in the past i get the impression that you and marriage maybe dont mix,maybe you will never want to get married,if thats the case i will get over it and enjoy what we have. babe i love you,you know that, and i dont want anything to change just because i have told you this,think of it this way...someone out there knows you well enough to want to grow old with you,thats a compliment is it not?..like i say..im not ready to get married,im just thinking about it more lately. Quote Link to comment
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