SweetJade Posted February 9, 2007 Share Posted February 9, 2007 Lately it just seems like a whole lot has changed in a couple of months. I lost a horrible boyfriend a couple of months ago, who I'm just getting over. Ironically his selfishness and immaturity taught me alot. It taught me how to be a better person and to be kind and generous no matter what! I was bitter and hurt but I learned to let god just handle him. Speaking of god I've been getting closer with him also. He makes me feel good when no one else will.Knowing that I'm a good person that wants to help people fills me up inside.Right now all I'm doing is soul searching. I'm really tired of the world we live in! There's so much hate and negativity everywhere you go. It's like everyone is warped into their own little world, everyone has their cliches of friends and if you don't fit their persona.. you won't fit in. Alot of people are too consumed with sex nowadays and no one wants a relationship anymore. It's all about who you can screw and move onto next. I see it with my friends. That's all they seemed concerned about. That's why recently I just cut all of them out of my life because they're too consumed with material things and who's fine and all of that. I'm just past all of that stuff. Another thing that's been bothering me is that I can't find any genuinely good people in my life. I always make TOXIC friends, they start off nice but they're always there to drag me down. That's why I got rid of this cliche I used to be in. I may have 1 or 2 good friends I talk to and it's not all of the time because their mainly busy with their own lives. I recently lost my job so it gives me alot of time to be home alot and reflect on myself. I'm just by myself alot and I'm actually lost right now. I mean I really don't know where I should go from here. I'm starting school in the summer but I have no clue what I want to do. I think I'm really misunderstood because I'm not into all of the things most people my age group are into. I like the simple life. I like to hang out with a group of friends and go to the movies. Everyone else is too consumed with clubbing,partying and sex sex sex and more sex. It's sad really.. I'm just trying to find my place in this messed up world and see exactly where I fit in because I really don't know right now... 1 Quote Link to comment
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