So glad to be home

[Gracelove]

Whew!!!

It's be such a long day, and I'm actually glad to be home, can you believe it?!

Work is soooooooo boring! There used to be enough work to keep me busy, but not anymore.

Early I was so frustrated because I felt I had come to the end of my rope when it comes to living at home with my mom.

But then my boyfriend called and made me laugh the entire time we were on the phone, that made me feel a lot better.

My mom puts sooooo much pressure on me to lose weight, I wish she'd just lay off sometimes.

Sometimes I really don't like her.

I guess it's just that, when a person does hurtful things for so long, you begin to dislike being around them.

I'm at a place where I'm working hard to protect myself because I seem so sensitive when it comes to many things.

It's just apart of who I am right now.

I don't like feeling attacked, when I feel uneasy I can't truly relax or unwind.

I've been unable to relax for way too long now.

I'm starting to become resentful, and I don't want to be that way.

I feel like the relationship I have with my mother is on the verge of becoming a disaster.

This isn't the first time I've felt this way, but I've had space, in the past.

How are things suppose to get better when we're living under the same roof?

I'm waiting until I return from seeing my boyfriend before working a second job.

Waiting is the hardest thing to do these days.

I know getting my own place would help me heal big time. I've always wanted to be able to support myself.

I'll be a true adult then.

But then I think of my kitten. If I'm working two jobs she'll be all alone.

My parents won't babysit her because she craps all over the place, LOL!!!

Before I had her I thought all cats were born potty trained.

Guess not.

Anywho, I don't know.

I'm hoping that seeing my boyfriend will help relax me. And if I'm working to jobs maybe I won't be home long enough for my parents (mostly my mom) to annoy me.

Well, I'm off, I'll probably write more later.

Thanks for listening!!!

~Grace