Im feeling pretty messed up right now

[stratguy620]

For the last few months or so, I've had this strange kind of paranoia or stress that I can't define, and it seems like it's getting worse and worse. I just feel like there are so many things pulling me in in so many directions, and I feel lost and alone. All this semester I've gone through some pretty crazy stuff. I found out last week that my grandfather has basal cell cancer. Also, my truck has broken down, which means I'm about to get fired from my job. Also, my sister and her friend that I'm seeing have been visiting me, and they just left this morning, and I feel even more alone than before. Plus, I am part of a team project at school, and all my team members do is make me feel bad about myself because their abilities are better than my own.

 

My whole life, I've been the guy that people come and cry to, and whenever they are depressed, I always tell them that it will always get better. I don't know if that's true though, because whatever it is that's up with me just seems to be getting worse. No matter how many friends I have around me, I still feel so alone. I've noticed that I'm becoming more and more nervous and anti-social, and it's hard for me to eat or sleep. I would like to think that once school lets up, I'll finally be able to ease my mind, but it just feels like no matter what I do, something else will come up and burden me even more. Please, if anyone has any kind of advice or reassurance, please share it...

[robowarrior]

Well your not here on e-notalone

 

And i see what the problem is, your life is like a dead piece of wood adrift in a river, the river just takes it wherever , however this is not the correct way to live your life.

 

Bring the power of your life back where it belongs, namely in YOUR hands. During ww2 when the Germans advanced to moscow, instead of thinking they were doomed and regretting the things that where lost, the Russians overcame the so called invincible odds, by pulling themselves together and fighting till death to push back the Germans which eventually led to the defeat and pulverisation of the german empire.

 

Or in other words, you don't sit when your truck breaks down, you repair it, you don't let school mess with you, you will work insanely to get your diploma. And you will keep telling those who come to you crying that it will get better if they fight for their lives to make a difference.

[blindfold]

i've been depressed before (not saying you are), and it felt like that - this unique sense of loneliness and hopelessness...

believe me it will get better, sometimes it's hard to see the end of the road, but it'll come... maybe you need some radical changes in your life, maybe you need to change just a thing or two - it is really up to you to chase happiness (i'm sorry to say) on your own - and if somebody comes along the way to keep you company, well, it's a bonus!

 

i am not saying you don't have any reason to feel bad (obviously you do), but it's just when you're feeling it couldn't get worse that it starts getting better...

 

best wishes*

[The Vitruvian Man]

I've been through that feeling multiple times. Here's a tip that has helped me a lot within the past few months:

 

The simple act of feeling sad does absoultely nothing to help your situation. All it does is create bad feelings within yourself. Taking action will help you feel good. So go get your truck fixed, get out and try to make some friends, and help your team to the best of your ability. You can do it. Trust me.

 

Hoped it helped.