An update on myself

[easyguy]

Over the past year or so, especially the past few months when I've been more or less away from eNotAlone (as a good thing), I have begun to change from an internal level, and really discipline myself into doing the things that I don't WANT to do but need to do.

 

Part of that is how I eat, how I divide my time up during the day, focusing on my priorities, etc.

 

I work part time now, which is nice because I can earn some money and support myself more on a financial level. I'm less dependent on my parents, though working for minimum wage doesn't allow me to by -anything- obviously. But enough to make me realize the value of money, and how important having SOME money is, not necessarily a LOT.

 

Over time I have also become much more... what's the word... spiritual I guess. I am an Athiest, but have, for quite some time now, been attracted to Buddhism as means of personal enrichment and self-focus. I am not an aggressive person, violence in any form does not appeal to me, and I try to keep myself clean. I have yet to actually dive into it, but it is definitely an aspect of spirituality that I am certainly interested in getting involved in soon. I don't know what is stopping me, but something is telling me to wait and get more educated in the big picture before making any decisions.

 

Over the summer I have in fact lost some weight. Part of that comes from disciplining myself to not overeat (which doesn't always work), and to consciously make better nutritional decisions. I have the drive to become healther, to be in shape. But sometimes that is the hardest battle to conquer; forcing yourself to do what you don't want to do. And in this case, doing that is for the better.

 

I've been on summer break for the past couple of months, so school is going to be starting again soon. I hope that I don't fall into my old habits of being the procrastinator. It seems like every summer I say that I am not going to fall into that, but I always do. Perhaps this will be different. I will MAKE it be different.

 

I'm also most likely going to be moving accross the country in a year, transfering from college to college. I am actually really impatient to move, to get out and experience life on my own. I think that is going to be a very pivotal point in my life. And I can't wait until it happens, because I am starting to feel restless living where I am. It will be a fresh start, a new beginning so to speak. There will surely be some bumps along the way, but that is part of it all. It is something I want to go through because it will make me realize my potential.

 

Anyway, I just thought I'd let that out. I haven't posted here much in the past few months, so I suppose it's kind of an update on myself. It's nice to see this forum is still up and running. I'll still be posting here, but not as much as I used to, because I have different priorities than before. But who can avoid a kind of safe haven like this forum.

[onewithbooks]

Hey easyguy,

 

Its good to hear that you are doing well!! I know what you mean about a fresh start. I used to tell my mom, Sometimes I want to go where no one knows my name." I hope that you fufill all your goals, and good luck at your new school!

 

LeAnn

[NJRon]

Good to hear things are going better for you easyguy... sounds like you are making some good progress. It's always nice to have a safe haven to come to port every now and then