BrokenBlackWolf Posted August 11, 2006 Author Share Posted August 11, 2006 and its like 3 am...soo im gonna go to bed...ill try and be less self-degrading, and more confident in myself. thanks Link to comment
nottoogreen Posted August 11, 2006 Share Posted August 11, 2006 OK, some broken expectations we know contribute to your low self esteem You expect to live in a happy family, you family divorced You expect to be loved by your parents, but you do not feel loved You love your sister and expect she happy but she is not... You expect to be respected in school, but they ridicule you .. find some more So, all this (and more) makes you tired and depressed. It's like a battery, power goes out but nothing recharges. Your inability to fix broken expectation reduces your self esteem, that makes you more depressed and not like yourself. If you do not like yourself, you can't like others. You get more lonely and depressed. It's a vicious circle. What's your opinion? Nice to talk with you, have a good rest. Link to comment
BrokenBlackWolf Posted August 14, 2006 Author Share Posted August 14, 2006 wow...last night was bad...i was with my boyfriend during a festival my town was having, we were at a street dance, and my mom freaked out cuz we didnt have a parent around(my mom just got home from out of state so she was home resting) (and my dad was at his house, he trust us enough and thinks we are capable to be out alone after dark)...so she called my dad, got pissed at him for not being there(even though nothing was wrong) then accused him of being drunk when he got there to pick me up...she didnt want me to go home w/ him, she thought it wasnt safe(he wasnt even driving, his gf was) my mom and sister yelled at each other for a while, i sat on the porch crying. then told my mom i didnt want to go home w/ her, she cried some more, asked if i was completely pissed at her, i said just about, then left and went to my dad's...from about a half hour before my dad got there till after i got to his house, i was crying(so a total of around 2 hours), my mom now doesnt allow me to use my phone after 10. i can only be on the internet for about an hour each day. i can only see my boyfriend once a week. and i have to go through everything in my room...theres an update on how my wonderful life is going...i bit myself alot throughout all that Link to comment
nottoogreen Posted August 14, 2006 Share Posted August 14, 2006 I feel with you, my parents had similar issues. Everyone freaks everyone out. Read and remember post #5. You have to develop your own strength. You must see a little light. Could you make a list like I made in post #27. We work through it together, and find better expectations for you. Link to comment
BrokenBlackWolf Posted August 17, 2006 Author Share Posted August 17, 2006 what if my purpose in life is to get my boyfriend out of his life... Link to comment
nottoogreen Posted August 18, 2006 Share Posted August 18, 2006 what if my purpose in life is to get my boyfriend out of his life... It would be helpful if you would eleborate slightly more. IMHO it depends, If his life is that bad, bring him here and we help him together. If he is bad to you, get rid of him and we help you to get over him. You are welcome to talk, the more the better. Link to comment
BrokenBlackWolf Posted August 18, 2006 Author Share Posted August 18, 2006 what does IMHO mean?? Link to comment
nottoogreen Posted August 19, 2006 Share Posted August 19, 2006 Oh, sorry girl, what a life. Your abused bf hurts, you hurt too. I feel with you. what does IMHO mean?? In My Humble Opinion. Hint: Google hes not bad to me. his life completely sucks. his grandma has been poisoning him, its made him pretty sick, They are crazy. It seems this ought to be handled by the authorities. They may kill him or he them! and have panic and pain attacks(which make him pass out, the other day he was out for 5 hours). Sorry, it may be because of poisening, he needs a doctor! a couple days ago he said he was about to kill everyone in his family(they all treat him like * and he punched his wall and broke a bone in his hand... He is going to hurt himself more, or them. He needs help. It would be best if would you talk to social services! His family may kill him or break his body with poison if you do nothing! Please keep us posted. Link to comment
BrokenBlackWolf Posted August 19, 2006 Author Share Posted August 19, 2006 and ya, the attacks are from the poison Link to comment
nottoogreen Posted August 19, 2006 Share Posted August 19, 2006 Poison can cause long term damage. Medical checkups may not pinpoint the poisening and thus do not treat it, or even mistreat it. I want research poison, any identification, brandname? How grandma administered poision? How old your bf? How is he with his mom? Does he have dad? Is grandma nuts? Tell us more about her, what you know Link to comment
BrokenBlackWolf Posted August 21, 2006 Author Share Posted August 21, 2006 sry about the inapproipraite language...when i get going i cant really stop myself Link to comment
BrokenBlackWolf Posted August 21, 2006 Author Share Posted August 21, 2006 he thinks it is brucine she put it in his food/drink hes 16 he isnt very close to his mom, she drinks alot(is almost always drunk), he doesnt know his real dad, his step-dad is an a-hole i dont know much of anything about his grandma Link to comment
nottoogreen Posted August 21, 2006 Share Posted August 21, 2006 See this: link removed. It's similar to Strychnine. Strychnine poisoning in humans Ten to twenty minutes after exposure, the body's muscles begin to spasm, starting with the head and neck. The spasms then spread to every muscle in the body, with nearly continuous convulsions, and get worse at the slightest stimulus. They progress, increasing in intensity and frequency until the backbone arches continually. Death comes from asphyxiation caused by paralysis of the brain's breathing apparatus, or by exhaustion from the convulsions. At that time, the body "freezes," even in the middle of a convulsion. Rigor mortis sets in immediately, with the eyes left wide open. From: link removed Yeah, his life really sucks, can we talk to your bf? Link to comment
BrokenBlackWolf Posted August 21, 2006 Author Share Posted August 21, 2006 ya i already knew that, i looked up everything i could find about it the second he told me what it was, his grandma is supposed to be coming back in a few weeks... i dont know if i can get im to come on here and talk, but ill try and ask him about it sometime soon Link to comment
BrokenBlackWolf Posted August 21, 2006 Author Share Posted August 21, 2006 im really worried about him...and im tempted to kill his grandma before she has the chance to do anything else Link to comment
nottoogreen Posted August 21, 2006 Share Posted August 21, 2006 No, don't do that, no use to you and him! Seriously, your should talk to the police and social services! If you want PM me your city, or PM to DN, to look up some numbers. Link to comment
BrokenBlackWolf Posted August 21, 2006 Author Share Posted August 21, 2006 what is PM and DN? Link to comment
nottoogreen Posted August 21, 2006 Share Posted August 21, 2006 what is PM and DN? PM is personal mail and DN is a moderator living in Canada, he knows the US better than me as I live in Asia. I suggest you PM your city to DN and he will find you contact numbers. Also give him this thread. Attempted murder is a matter for the authorities, the more so if grandma comes back soon! Link to comment
BrokenBlackWolf Posted August 21, 2006 Author Share Posted August 21, 2006 i dont really want the authorities getting involved...and i doubt he would want that either, if he did, they probally would already be involved Link to comment
nottoogreen Posted August 21, 2006 Share Posted August 21, 2006 What do we do then? You want him to be poisened again? Please talk to him to look after his life and talk to the authorities. They may have special tests to find the poison if he goes soon. Link to comment
BrokenBlackWolf Posted August 21, 2006 Author Share Posted August 21, 2006 im sure its brucine, hes had the symptoms of it (fyi-the first time he was poisoned was over a month ago) if i could i would be with him 24/7, but right now i am banned from going to his house. but ill talk to him Link to comment
nottoogreen Posted August 21, 2006 Share Posted August 21, 2006 OK, please talk to him and good luck! Keep us posted. Link to comment
BrokenBlackWolf Posted August 21, 2006 Author Share Posted August 21, 2006 will do...or will try to do at least Link to comment
nottoogreen Posted August 21, 2006 Share Posted August 21, 2006 Be patient with him, he needs your friendship most. Do not push him! Explain to him that it is his life, his choice and that you do not want to lose him, and that he can't win on his own against nutcase grandma, alcoholic mom and mom's a* bf. Patience and persistence! Link to comment
nottoogreen Posted August 21, 2006 Share Posted August 21, 2006 Oh, and if you can, print post #5 for him and yourself. May the force be with both of you! Link to comment
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