Not a day goes by...

[okane24]

Not a day goes by where I don't think about my ex. It's been about 3 and half weeks since we've spoken and have broken up. She's recently contacted me through Myspace saying she's very very sorry and feels awful, but that doesn't change a thing. THEY'RE JUST WORDS... Just a month ago, she used to say she LOVED me. Again just words. No action behind that. I felt her slipping away long before the actual break-up.

 

I miss her like CRAZY. Somewhere inside I still LOVE her very much. In spite of her leaving me... I long for the days where we spent all day inside together, watching TV, "hangin out", ordering pizza so we didn't have to go outside...laughing together, sleeping together...

 

She was my first TRUE LOVE.

 

3 weeks of NC and she finally writes to me. I don't know what to say to her. I want to write her back, but not really. What's the point?

 

It won't solve anything. She's still not coming home from studying abroad for at least another 2 months. And when she's back, can I ever see her as the same person? She broke my heart into pieces, and right now, I'm doing the best I can to repair myself. And slooooowly but surely, it's working.

 

But like I said, Not a day goes by that I don't think about her...There is SOMETHING that ALWAYS reminds me of her. But, alas, it does get easier.

 

Any suggestions on what I should do out there? I do wish we could be together again, but maybe later on in the future. She's just 21 and I'm 29. At first, I didn't think the age gap would make a difference, but man, was I wrong. She's in an entirely different world. Physically (she's in Asia right now, I'm in San Diego), mentally, and emotionally. Yet I still TRIED my hardest to make it work. But it didn't.

 

Thank you all for listening and any input would be great...

[bobo85]

How long was your relationship? It will take some time...but the pain will stop. Right now your thinking about her 24/7, but as days go by...you will think about her less and less. Just try to keep busy and do not let yourself daydream about her all day. Its okay to think about her...but do not replay your whole relationship in your head.

 

Just Keep Busy !!!!!!!

[xblondyx]

Don't reply to her, keep NC. Replying to her will just make you think about her even more.

I know it's hard and you feel like you'll never get over her, but you will. Just stay strong, go out with friends and keep busy. It's the best way.