I think I'm going insane!

[Slain67]

Every single day, I'm just depressed. I am so lonely. I know people go through the same thing, but other people's misery doesn't help me feel any better. It hurts everyday at every moment and seems so endless and hopeless. I just want to get a good g/f and relieve that loneliness. I just want a female out there to like me for who I am. I just want the pain to go away. I'm not thinking of suicide at all, of course, cause that's not an escape and would only cause suffering to the people who love me. Also, I hate how people all over the world are suffering. It just make me feel so bad to know of the horrors people go through. It adds to my depression. Then there's the stress of today's world ...you know, work, school, repsonsibilties, etc. I just don't think I can handle all that pressure. I really want a g/f to help make all that much better... Which brings me to another problem. I'm 19 and I still can't seem to any g/f cause everytime I really like a female, I never get the courage to make things happen or to ask them out. Like, I really like this girl who makes me so happy to be around with and I can't seem to find the courage nor time to really talk to her. We only have one college course together and we're never really sitting alone or anything. And even if I do get a g/f, I feel like I have to be with them at every moment cause I am just so needy and pathetic right now. It's like their presense is food to this endless hunger I have...I really don't know what to do or think anymore. As you can see, I have a lot going through my mind right now...I'm so confused and desperate. Please help me out!

[romantic sweetheart]

My heart beats in sympathetic unison with yours...It sometimes feels like the weight of the world is on our shoulders, and the only true relief is to be comforted by another soul, a soul we call our own. The woes of the world seem so overwhelming, and the pain of our own life is magnified when we lack the healing of touch and intimacy.....

 

One thing I do that sometimes help me through the long, woebegone nights and days is to think of this time as a preparation for love. Somewhere exists someone who is hurting, who is full of yearning, who desires romance and closeness, and this person is tied to you by the invisible cords of fate......As we patiently wait for the gentle introduction of love in our life, we can prepare ourselves mind, body and soul...Think of everyday as a day which brings you closer to love, and think of everyday as a chance to prepare yourself in anwy way that you can....reading, writing, exercising, meditating, eating well, paying attention to the beauty of the earth, enriching your mind with healthy thoughts, etc.

 

And it is right and true to express your feelings, and to seek out gentle person who can listen and sympathize. There are many on this forum who understand, and who want to help.

 

Our desires sustain us, press us onward, bring us our dreams, enlighten our hearts, engage us in good works......

 

Do not lose heart...Just follow your own way, bless the time you have been given to grow and learn, to prepare for love.....

 

And remember "Whatever spirits desire, spirits attain"

[Slain67]

Wow, you really have a way with words. I bet you would make a great writer.

 

And thank you for your help. Your words have inspired and motivated me to move on and hope for the better.

[AntiLove_SuperStar]

I really get feelings of intense loneliness and desperation from your post, which makes me sad, so firstly - i am sorry that you are in pain.

Secondly, I am glad that you are blessed with the insight that suicide is not the answer.

 

What does worry me though is how you seem very fixated on the idea of obtaining a girlfriend as the solution to your unhappiness. From experience...it isnt. And you won't be attracting a healthy kind of relationship anyway in your current state of mind, so I'd advise you to act upon your feelings that the world is a bad place and start out with voluntary work, and reaching out to other people to help them, which will heighten your self-esteem...

 

I havnt been single for 1.5 years, yet in that time I have experienced some of the worst depression I could ever have imagined. So Im telling you this for free...girlfriends/boyfriends, whether they be serious, short term, sexual, romantic..whatever...only serve as a distraction or life enrichment, they cannot provide you with real inner peace or happiness.

[becallamjr]

From one man to another, grow a pair and go talk to her. I feel you on the nervousness, but dude what's the worst that could happen, she rejects you. how many girls are out there? How many girls have you liked? Rejection is a hard thing to deal with, but even so, who cares. There are so many fish in the sea. I could have been so sympathetic and blah blah blah, but I was where you are now. Confidence my friend, they love it. Also, your fixation on getting a girl is a little scary, usually the harder you try, the less it happens, but since your in college, no sweat. A female isn't gonna take your worries away it's just gonna mask them a little. You need to find inner peace with yourself. I suggest trying Tai Chi or Yoga or just meditate. Good luck man!