I don't know what to do..

[babyshorty18]

Ok let's see where to start..

 

So me and my ex (Collin) were together for about 16 months and we lived together. We had a cute house which we loved and even had a puppy. Unfortunately we both had tempers so whenever we fought we broke up. About 2 months ago I moved out because I thought that maybe it would make him realize what he had.. It was pretty much like we were still together because I still stayed at his house when he was home (He's only home 1 week out of 3 because of work) and we still spent alot of time together.

 

This Christmas he went to his mom's which I thought would be good for him because she has been sick so I didn't get mad or anything that we were spending christmas apart. We still talked everyday and he told me he loved me and missed me and couldn't wait to see me.

 

New Year's Eve I was supposed to go up to where he was working to spend it with him but the weather was bad so I stayed home.. That night I checked his voice mail and found a message from another girl telling him how she loved him.. I called her. She told me everything and completely broke my heart. He called me the next day apologizing and I finally talked to him even though everytime I heard his voice I cried it hurt so bad.

 

I got a hold of some demerol and decided I was going to kill myself the next night. I called him that night to say goodbye and he told me how much he loved me and that if we got back together it would be serious like marriage and * * * *. All or nothing. He was almost in tears and he told me that he would do anything to earn my trust back.. I believed his lies and didn't take anymore demerol that night.

 

The next day he told me we couldn't be together atleast not right now because I needed help.. Meanwhile he was telling her he wanted to be with her.. He broke my heart so incredibly bad. I tried to kill myself again after that and ended up in the hospital. I called him that night but he didnt even call me back. He didn't care.

 

Now he is with her and she's moving into "our" house even though they've only known each other a few weeks. He won't even talk to me and I don't know what to do. I have lost the person I love more than anything in the world. The person I was supposed to spend the rest of my life with. He always told me "Jodie, you know that we will end up together forever". I feel so helpless because I know that there is nothing I can probably do.

 

Any advice on what to do? How to get through this? I feel so stupid because I would still give almost anything to be with him even after all the * * * * he's put me through..

[shyanne]

its not good that you feel like killing yourself but i'm sure you know that. no man is worth that. i'm sure you love him but you need to love yourself more. your the important one here not him not her. YOU....

 

you should read the poem marianne wrote. search "life goes on".

 

good luck to you.

[Marianne]

hi there Sweety i read you post ,i can understand you have feelings for this guy but you deserve way better then this .

 

you say he wanted to earn ur trust again and it was all lies?

Der is the right guys out der for you it will happen wen you dont expect it but you shuld go do wot you have always wanted to do in life

CONTROL YOUR LIFE

dye your hair

change job

set your goals

You are special person you deserve more,

if you need sum1 to talk to im here n other ppl are here tooo

God bless you

Marianne XX