Ryannayr Posted January 3 Share Posted January 3 Sorry boring who might be reading this, but my issue is this: I know this woman for two and a half years, (we knew each other younger but we couldn't date as we were both with others), and she was really into me, like a lot. We never dated but we hanged out on and off, we've done everything like couples here and there but then I always backed up everytime that we were meeting more often. I always told her my intentions that I didn't want to set but she kept coming however I always felt something for her. I'm nothing special but I always thought that apart that I wanted to stay single, at the end without any offence, that perhaps she was a bit more simple for my taste (although perhaps it is what suites me best with my personality). So we kept meeting randomly, we done cool things in 2022 together and slowly slowly I found myself inilizing her deeper if we can be compatible or not while apparently she was and cooled off from me that I might be the ideal one for her. Same for me, meeting her and doing cool stuff together, I kept believing that she's not the right one for me. We always dated on and off others, at times we were both single. Lastly, two months ago I was promising to myself that I'm going to cut the line with her once and for all and I also was building some inner anger for her, mainly because I think that when I invented some cool outing like with jetskis or something, she came running. I decided not to text her anymore. One time walking my dogs, I saw her in a car with another, I felt really bad, I said to myself even "bye forever". Things got very bad in my mind, jealousy (I know I'm stupid, I had more than two years) and I got lost. A few days later, she texted me! I couldn't tell her anything wrong as I was surprised that I felt really glad she did. However her intention was just to meet again as we did before, to hang out and do whatever we used to do before, outings, cuddles, sex. I had to tell her my feelings now, she got shocked as she wasn't expecting this now. She had a fight with whom I saw her, because he wanted a break but apparently, she is still a bit into him. I might be completely egoist as she told me to give her time to sort her things out and it is where I told her that I won't be waiting her and it is either that we tried together now or it is over completely between us, I've done like a child maybe but I didn't want to lose her. She told me that she respects me a lot, like really good friends, that she's going to try this thing as well, we flew to Paris (instead of the guy I saw her with) for the new year while still she told me that the burn she had for me, is not there yet, if ever is coming. We're still hanging out, sex we have although it doesn't feel the same. I never told her that my flame for her grew much bigger when I saw her with the other (he's still texting her that he regrets asking her for a break. She might still be feeling something for him.) We know how to hang out and have fun together, yes I feel her to be a bit simple-minded with my stupid arrogant head. We're sleeping together every day. I feel lost, I feel stupid, I gave up marijuana for her easily I don't know how but I know that it would be of help. She told me that she will keep giving this a bit of time to see if this lost flame for me comes back to her....i really wish her, literally and I don't know what else I can do. I'm stupid, I'm selfish and arrogant I believe, but I wish that it works between us. Anyone can suggest me what can I do? Or what not to do? Best wishes dear all, Ryan Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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