I wish summer wasn't so soon...

[Stinkweed]

Yeh, I'm gonna miss my friends, who are the one thing I look forward to everyday... You know, meeting them at school at the later hours... I actually feel kinda bad too, cause I didn't get to hang out much with many of them. And some of them I only just started to hang out with... With them, it's the only one time that I don't feel everybody's judging me, cause even if they are, I don't care... I'm just a regular guy being himself and hanging out with his friends... I know I won't be seeing many of them next year. And I hope that they don't forget me over the summer... And I used to be a waaaayy lonelier kid, so I wouldn't miss anything from school... But this time I do, and time is just flying by now that I don't want it to... And it's not that I like school, but that's where my friends are, and they're the one thing that I look forward to... Hope that I can at least meet more ppl like them next year, and that they don't forget me (even though things are starting to look weird with some of them already...). And I guess this post don't make much sense, but to everyone out there who has found great friendships this year, please VALUE THEM and APPRECIATE THEM while they last, and if possible at all, make them last forever... Just thought I should share all that... Peace.

 

PS: I'm hella scared of the future, and I only wish things stay the way they are...

[kungfumaster]

hey dead eyes - i know exactly what you mean, even at the age of 30.

 

why can't you hang out with them during summer? are they going away?? are you going away?? maybe, can't you ask one of them if they'd like to spend part of the summer with you and your family, or you with their familly??

[Caldus]

Eh I don't miss college right now. Didn't have any friends there anyway.

[Stinkweed]

I know college won't be my favorite... And highschool wasn't that good either (but it could've been better if only a couple of things had been different...). And I dunno about my friends... For some of them, it's really hard to get a hold of. I'll be going away for some time, and I dunno about them... I don't think it'll be possible. I'm willing to try, though... Any ideas and suggestions on that would be perfect. Peace.

[kungfumaster]

hey dead eyes, what do you mean you'll be going away for some time?? don't understand your situation to be honest, so can't really have any suggestions if we don't know your situation, i.e., where are your friends, where are you in comparison to them geographically, etc...

[Stinkweed]

Well, you see... I've been alone for so long... You know, no friends. I guess I'm not used to having friends. So, I guess I'm kinda afraid things might not be the same next year... We live in the same state (go to the same school and some of the same classes), so that's not a problem And by going away over the summer, I meant to answer your question: Yes, I'll go on a trip for a while... I still dunno how long it'll be... My situation is simply that as much as they tell me we can hang out over the summer, I already sense it'll be different... And I don't want them to forget me. And I guess until this year, high school had been full of suffering for me... I had always been miserable. This year was one of the best years ever, though... And I only wish next year be the same, if not better... If only you could buy insurance for stuff like that to happen... I'd feel comforted, and I'd be able to sleep once again... I mean, things are finally ok for me... And the few friends I have right now, are the one thing I look forward to every day... And I'm sad that summer will take that away... And I only hope it's only temporary... This just sucks... Why is it that everytime things start to look up for me, they gotta end? Can't they last a little bit longer? What about next year? It'll be the last... Will it just go by lightspeed? I sure hope not... I hope it goes more like snailspeed... I'm just really annoyed at how time never seems to be on my side... When I want it to go by fast, it doesn't... When I want it to go by slower, it doesn't... I just wish there was more time, cause my 1st two years in highschool feel like a complete waste of my time and life... So, I feel like I only started to live (and there are still hundreds of things I've always wanted to do before college, which I know will be all work and no play), and now I have little time left... This only looks like a bad joke to me... It's not funny... I feel like a hopeless moron... Getting those hundreds of things done before college would make me feel better... So, once again, I wish there was insurance for stuff like that to happen...

 

Peace.

[kungfumaster]

well - let me say this - i was a total loner in highschool and highschool was miserable for me. the only thing that got me going is the stuff i learned - i was, lets just say, the so called nerd... anyways, more to you.

 

the thing is, i don't see why, even in your reply, anywhere, why you can't be with your friends during summer, even just for a little bit yah know - you know just hang out once a week or something... why is that so impossible?? are you afraid they won't want to hang out with you anymore during the summer... if they don't, then they can go to hell... you don't need friends like that.

 

but, if they are truly your friends, then you got to do a little work if you want to spend some time with your friends. its not going to happen magically - you have to put in a little effort into it.

 

for me, in highschool, i admit, i didn't put much effort into making friends and keeping them because i was so afraid of rejection - that's what i regret, so in essense, it was my fault i was a loner... but, now that i'm much older, i'm not so afraid of rejection anymore because i like who i am (forever a nerd who gets paid well being one by the way )- i realize i have to work to make and keep friends.

 

i don't know, i hope this makes sense??

[Caldus]

I know college won't be my favorite... And highschool wasn't that good either (but it could've been better if only a couple of things had been different...). And I dunno about my friends... For some of them, it's really hard to get a hold of. I'll be going away for some time, and I dunno about them... I don't think it'll be possible. I'm willing to try, though... Any ideas and suggestions on that would be perfect. Peace.

 

College > High School

 

Keep that in mind.

[Stinkweed]

i realize i have to work to make and keep friends.

 

i don't know, i hope this makes sense??

 

It makes perfect sense... but, you see, I dunno how to work on it... Should I just be like "hey, let's hang out". Or what? Any ideas?

 

 

College > High School

 

Keep that in mind.

 

I guess that's a matter of opinion...