Jump to content

Anxiety Help - Journal


boltnrun
 Share

Recommended Posts

26 minutes ago, boltnrun said:

She's not losing weight. Did I say that? She's actually gaining. I started her on the wet food in the evenings for the past 3 weeks or so and she has definitely gained.

 If any other symptoms show up I will try to get her an appointment. But I'm not able to spend thousands on treatments.  In that case I would have a tough decision to make.

For sure. We couldn’t either not at the time could I invest the time to care for my beloved Tatter Tot ( one of his nicknames) so we made a horrible choice or rather my husband made it for me because he said there is no way we can do this, you are not thinking clearly. I had to take my beloved boy because my husband was on course and on a team call. I was an utter wreck . I was totally inconsolable, the vet almost didn’t let me drive away . 

Link to comment
Share on other sites

I'm so sorry. That had to be heartbreaking. 

I had to have my previous cat put down. We only had her for 3 months but sadly she had contracted FIP before we adopted her. The agency had no idea. She was a sweet kitty with an adorable personality. My kids were inconsolable for months and so was I.

I have had my girl kitty since 2007. I would be devastated to lose her, but I can't allow her to be in pain either. It's so hard.

She is currently sitting in the kitchen doorway waiting for dinner. She does this every day, at least 3 hours before dinnertime. Silly cat.

Link to comment
Share on other sites

Tomorrow is going to be a big test.  I am going to a protest (yes, I'll be carrying a sign) that is expected to have over 200 participants.  The organizers have instructed us to wear masks and physically distance as much as possible, but since it's a protest there is likely to be chanting and shouting.  So, my plan is to stay toward the back of the group and use my sign as a kind of barrier.  And of course I'll be masked.

I was so disappointed to not be able to participate in any of the protests last year, but I was way, way too anxious to even try to be in a crowd that large.

I should also be eligible to receive a booster shot.  I have to wait until the end of the month since it has to be at least 6 months since your second shot. Mine was late April, so late October it is!  Also planning to get a flu shot before then.

Link to comment
Share on other sites

Apparently we have so many doses we are giving millions of them away to countries that need them (good!) but we still have enough for the children plus boosters for seniors, people in high risk occupations and those with health conditions.  With so many people refusing to get vaccinated there are lots of doses just sitting there, and they have to be used before they go bad.

Link to comment
Share on other sites

14 minutes ago, boltnrun said:

Apparently we have so many doses we are giving millions of them away to countries that need them (good!) but we still have enough for the children plus boosters for seniors, people in high risk occupations and those with health conditions.  With so many people refusing to get vaccinated there are lots of doses just sitting there, and they have to be used before they go bad.

For sure ! There should be no waste ! 

Link to comment
Share on other sites

As of about 5 weeks ago there were still 70 million eligible adults and teens who were not vaccinated in the US.  So that's a lot of doses that aren't being used.  Although many large employers are starting to mandate vaccination.  However those people might feel about it, it's coming down to getting vaccinated or losing their jobs.

I'm also supposed to travel to my previous town in two weeks.  Still not 100% sure if I'm going since their Covid numbers are better but still not great.  It will be a road trip (no way in heck am I getting on an airplane!) so we'll see.

Link to comment
Share on other sites

Our vaccination rates are pretty good . Many large employers here have already started with get vaccinated or you are unpaid leave or goodbye to your job. Here they are recommending 8 months out for the booster for those eligible. 
 

Canada has reached about 70% of the population over 12 fully vaccinated 

Link to comment
Share on other sites

The protest was invigorating!  I haven't participated in one since 2019.  There were about 300 people present which was a great turnout.  The mayor, some city council members and even some of the state representatives were there.  My city has a terrific mayor.  I love participating in things like this.  I'm a very strong believer in using your voice peacefully to work for change.  Surprisingly there were no counter protestors.  A fair amount of police were present so maybe that's why.

I had no choice but to be in a crowd, but I would estimate 97% of the people there were wearing masks.  I stood toward the back and held my sign up so that oncoming car traffic could see it.  I got lots of horns honked in support and not one insult!  The last protest I attended I got cursed at many times.  That doesn't bother me though.  I have pretty thick skin.  

I then walked back home and stopped at a small business around the corner that makes smoothies and sandwiches.  I got a smoothie.  I like to support small businesses.  I don't usually drink smoothies because I often get indigestion, but the owner made it with coconut milk and plant based whipped "cream" so I should be OK.

And, now I'm exhausted.  I was thinking about going back out but I'm so tired!  I think I'll be home the rest of the day.

Oh, and the local news station sent a reporter.  I wonder if we'll make the news!

Edited by boltnrun
Link to comment
Share on other sites

23 hours ago, Seraphim said:

You are doing so well!

Thank you!

So today someone once again scheduled a meeting during my lunch time. I am the only hourly employee and in my state you are required to "clock out" for lunch no later than 5 hours after your clock in time. I sign on at 7:30 so I usually take lunch from 12:15 to 1:00. Well, this guy scheduled the meeting for 12:30 and I have another meeting at 1:00. None of them have to take lunch at a certain time since they are all salaried so they never think about it. I declined the meeting and explained why. Oh,and he put it on the schedule this morning, so no advance notice. I get annoyed when they treat me like one of the little people just because I'm a contract worker. Blech.

Link to comment
Share on other sites

Warning...more poop talk.

The last two mornings I've been woken up VERY early to clean up after my cat. She is having loose stools and is dripping it all over. Probably caused by the wet food I've been feeding her in the evenings (which she loves). So I'm going to only give her a little bit of it tonight and then switch to a gravy treat I used to give her before that didn't cause the runs. If she still gets the runs then, sorry kitty, no more wet food for you.

This never happened before but she's getting older and her digestive system probably isn't as effective as it used to be.

In other news, I am a BIG sports fan and yesterday was a great day for me. Two wins by favorite athletes/teams.

Also, a massive, huge thunderstorm overnight. The lightning and thunder were epic. I love a nice big thunderstorm.

Link to comment
Share on other sites

Annoying dream about ex last night! Exes in my dreams are always way more compelling and attractive than they are in real life. This ex tried to start dating me again a few years ago. I found him insufferably boring and annoying, although when he dumped me in 2000 I was devastated and heartbroken. He reached out early this year again and I shut him down. Don't want that.

I decided to postpone my trip too. I'm not ready. I am worried about my cat and don't want to leave her alone overnight, my cousin is likely going to be going through a bad divorce and is asking for my support, I'm anxious about traveling alone...just too many reasons not to go. I want to see my friends but now doesn't feel like the right time.

Link to comment
Share on other sites

I get to spend my lunch break walking 1 1/4 miles to retrieve my car where I had to park it and (hopefully) move it at least somewhat closer. There was an event over the weekend where they had almost all of the local parking marked as No Parking. I love living close to all the action but that means more traffic, plus my neighborhood is very high density with dozens of apartment buildings that don't provide parking. So there are hundreds of us competing for parking spots.

Link to comment
Share on other sites

Temperature went from 30 C down to 19 C and is going back up to 29 C in 3 days.

This weather is stupid. I have both the fan and the space heater setup because it keeps switching back and forth. And I have to keep switching from flannel pajamas to a little nightie and back again and adding and removing bed blankets. So ridiculous.

Link to comment
Share on other sites

Guest
This topic is now closed to further replies.
 Share


  • Top Discussions this Week

  • Our picks

    • How To Make A Woman Want You Sexually (Guide To Building Her Interest And Sexual Attraction)
      Learn how to make a woman want you sexually! In today's video we're talking about sexual attraction and how you make a woman want you! We're going to be discussing some useful tips you can put to work to get a woman interested in you and building that sexual desire. Often men think they know exactly what women want, men in sports cars with big houses a big wallet and a bad boy attitude. This might be what the ladies want in movies but not in real life it's very different. To know what a lady wants you need to understand what you need to do to make her want you sexually. Imagine if you knew the secret formula to do this, the one that tells you exactly what women want sexually. The formula would let you know exactly what you need to do to get a woman to fall into your arms, sounds too good to be true right? Well it's not! It's as easy as being mindful of your own behaviour and adopting steel-proof boundaries. Want to know some more? Well don't move an inch.

       
      • 0 replies
    • How to know when he's really fallen in LOVE
      You’re falling in love with your man deeper every day, but you don’t know if he feels the same way for you. It’s natural to want to know his feelings for you. What happens when he doesn’t say it or he’s not the type to say that? His actions tell you he loves you, but you could be wrong, right? So how do you know when he’s really in love with you? It’s not always so easy, but it’s not impossible either!

       
      • 0 replies
    • 6 Psychological Secrets of Attraction
      Knowing whether or not someone is “into you” can be incredibly difficult if they don’t explicitly say it. In this video, we will be looking at some psychological secrets of attraction.

       
      • 0 replies
    • This Healing Mindset That Helps Overcome Trauma Symptoms
      If you grew up with neglect and abuse, you've needed time to talk about what happened, and how parents and others treated you. But THEN what? Once you've acknowledged the past and gained an understanding of how you developed symptoms of trauma, how can you overcome those symptoms, and move forward with building a happy and fulfilled life? In this video I teach about the two general categories of comments I see on my channel, and what that suggestions about the commenter's readiness to heal.

       
      • 0 replies
    • "I Want A Girlfriend" Do THIS First
      I want a girlfriend. Have you ever found yourself thinking "I want a girlfriend" but you're not quite sure if you're actually ready for one? Before you go about doing anything else it's important to make sure that you actually need a girlfriend right now.

       
        • Like
      • 0 replies
×
×
  • Create New...