ButterflyWrists Posted May 29, 2020 Author Share Posted May 29, 2020 Is there anyone in your local area that does child minding? No idea, but again costs will be the same as what I'd earn in a day, we have extremely low wages for care staff 😔 Had my call, they couldn't share any info with me due to mum not giving consent, but I've given them info that will help them give her the best care possible. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted May 29, 2020 Share Posted May 29, 2020 No idea, but again costs will be the same as what I'd earn in a day, we have extremely low wages for care staff 😔 Had my call, they couldn't share any info with me due to mum not giving consent, but I've given them info that will help them give her the best care possible. Hugs sweetheart I am routing for you. I know it is so so hard but we can’t fix our families. I tried with my dad well into my 40s. You can’t fix people who don’t want help you can’t fix people who don’t want to get along it’s just the way it is. It is so brutal I realize, my heart was broken when I just had to give up on my father. But your daughter needs you more than these other people. You are not responsible for these other people. They are responsible for themselves whether they abdicate that responsibility or not. Link to comment
ButterflyWrists Posted May 29, 2020 Author Share Posted May 29, 2020 Hugs sweetheart I am routing for you. I know it is so so hard but we can’t fix our families. I tried with my dad well into my 40s. You can’t fix people who don’t want help you can’t fix people who don’t want to get along it’s just the way it is. It is so brutal I realize, my heart was broken when I just had to give up on my father. But your daughter needs you more than these other people. You are not responsible for these other people. They are responsible for themselves whether they abdicate that responsibility or not. I had to hang up on mum, she stated blaming me for stuff I have 0 control over. She wouldn't listen to what I had to say. I'm totally done for now. My family comes first now. My daughter is totally innocent in all this and she needs her mum to be happy and healthy. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted May 29, 2020 Share Posted May 29, 2020 I had to hang up on mum, she stated blaming me for stuff I have 0 control over. She wouldn't listen to what I had to say. I'm totally done for now. My family comes first now. My daughter is totally innocent in all this and she needs her mum to be happy and healthy. Good for you love. I know it hurts but you owe your daughter a life not your mum. Link to comment
ButterflyWrists Posted May 30, 2020 Author Share Posted May 30, 2020 Baby did not want to sleep in cot last night. And this morning when I tried to pass her to her daddy so I can sleep or at least lay down, she was sick.. all over both of them. Clearly only wants mummy. Zzzz Link to comment
ButterflyWrists Posted June 2, 2020 Author Share Posted June 2, 2020 Genuinely really upset at how fast baby is growing! Her 0-3 month clothes are getting too small now, she's only 6 weeks old!! Has her daddy's genes, he's well over 6' actually sat here crying 😭 Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 2, 2020 Share Posted June 2, 2020 Genuinely really upset at how fast baby is growing! Her 0-3 month clothes are getting too small now, she's only 6 weeks old!! Has her daddy's genes, he's well over 6' actually sat here crying 😭 They do grow quickly. ❤️ Link to comment
ButterflyWrists Posted June 4, 2020 Author Share Posted June 4, 2020 I washed my hair yesterday and now my ears are killing, I used ear plugs but no help. I hate my stupid body!!! Daughter is doing well though. Over ordered her singer clothes in next size up cause I don't have many.. although I'm hoping cutting the feet off some of her sleep suits will keep her in them a tiny bit longer. Why do they grow so fast? Link to comment
ButterflyWrists Posted June 5, 2020 Author Share Posted June 5, 2020 Little one slept loads last night only she still woke up twice for her feeds, but went back down after her 4:30 feed until 8am. Not that I got back to sleep. I lived watching her sleep though, she's so beautiful. I'm so in love with her 💜❤🥰 Link to comment
Batya33 Posted June 5, 2020 Share Posted June 5, 2020 Little one slept loads last night only she still woke up twice for her feeds, but went back down after her 4:30 feed until 8am. Not that I got back to sleep. I lived watching her sleep though, she's so beautiful. I'm so in love with her 💜❤🥰 Wonderful!!!! Enjoy her. Link to comment
ButterflyWrists Posted June 5, 2020 Author Share Posted June 5, 2020 One of my cats moved out when we bought baby home.. today here curled up on her whole she was feeding 💜 Link to comment
ButterflyWrists Posted June 9, 2020 Author Share Posted June 9, 2020 Depression is thoroughly kicking my butt today. My poor daughter has had no quality interaction from me, one little song.. One of my cats, the known ruin away, has been gone since Saturday. I can't find him. Mum came out of hospital 24hr Sunday so we saw her after seeing the in laws. She seemed ok? We no longer have any baby pictures of me..I think that triggered memories of childhood.. I dunno. I just feel utter shyte today. Link to comment
Batya33 Posted June 9, 2020 Share Posted June 9, 2020 Depression is thoroughly kicking my butt today. My poor daughter has had no quality interaction from me, one little song.. One of my cats, the known ruin away, has been gone since Saturday. I can't find him. Mum came out of hospital 24hr Sunday so we saw her after seeing the in laws. She seemed ok? We no longer have any baby pictures of me..I think that triggered memories of childhood.. I dunno. I just feel utter shyte today. I'm sorry you're having such a hard time today! Link to comment
ButterflyWrists Posted June 16, 2020 Author Share Posted June 16, 2020 Major ptsd issues. Ben seale since 2.30 when I woke to feed baby.. despite cuddles with fiance which usually helps. Trying to fall asleep and sleep paralysis type thing occurred she'd trapped in the throes of a flush back. I feel awful, exhausted and beaten. I have to take baby for her vaccinations today, which I'm dreading, I can't feed her 20 min prior or after. I wish fiance could take her, but I gave my post natal check, and only 1 parent allowed due to the virus. Link to comment
Batya33 Posted June 16, 2020 Share Posted June 16, 2020 Good luck today!! The vaccinations are so much harder for parent than baby! Link to comment
ButterflyWrists Posted June 16, 2020 Author Share Posted June 16, 2020 Disclaimer 2020, this is NOT an invitation! Can this year get any worse??? It's extremely stressful and way too much going on. Major stress and today... 3 hours sleep.. family emergency etc etc etc... I'm done... Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 16, 2020 Share Posted June 16, 2020 Hugs. Hang on. You are in my heart. Link to comment
ButterflyWrists Posted June 17, 2020 Author Share Posted June 17, 2020 3 hours sleep again. Then brain wouldn't shut down. Then two nightmares. Both ptsd related, one fire and the other, my usual ptsd .. Today is also gonna suck.. my mum may not forgive me, but I HAVE to do this. Link to comment
ButterflyWrists Posted June 19, 2020 Author Share Posted June 19, 2020 Baby is 14lb!!! Crazy!!! Love her to bits.. Link to comment
Seraphim Posted June 19, 2020 Share Posted June 19, 2020 Baby is 14lb!!! Crazy!!! Love her to bits.. That is a big girl! You are doing a great job mama! Link to comment
ButterflyWrists Posted June 21, 2020 Author Share Posted June 21, 2020 First fathers day today. Oh man he's been my rock through all of this, especially the past week. How on earth can I show him how much I appetizer him??? Link to comment
Batya33 Posted June 21, 2020 Share Posted June 21, 2020 First fathers day today. Oh man he's been my rock through all of this, especially the past week. How on earth can I show him how much I appetizer him??? Just tell him and hug him and point out all he brings to your and your daughter's life!That's what I would do. I got pregnant Father's Day weekend so I especially love father's day LOL. Link to comment
ButterflyWrists Posted June 21, 2020 Author Share Posted June 21, 2020 Just tell him and hug him and point out all he brings to your and your daughter's life!That's what I would do. I got pregnant Father's Day weekend so I especially love father's day LOL. Aww that's really sweet!! I've told him many times, I just wish I could show exactly how mitch I appreciate him.. but it isn't something that can be quantified. He loves his present a customised book. Having a lovely day, and now he's making dinner. I hope everyone's having a lovely day today 🙂 Link to comment
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