geekgirl12 Posted January 2, 2020 Share Posted January 2, 2020 After two years of dating, I was finally able to express to my boyfriend what I feel everytime he brings up his dead girlfriend in everything I do or say. Once, I mentioned "awesomesauce" and he immediately brought up how she picked it up from him and how she used to say it a lot back then and it reminds him of happy days. We're both metalheads. He was actually surprised that I am because I seem to be the softie kind. And he made me listen to Losing you and As a Butterfly by Dead by April and I know it might be assuming but I kind of connect the dots and feel like it is still a song for her. A bit of background about us and the girl, this childhood friend/girlfriend died 5 years ago because she was murdered. (I don't know what really happened because I was too scared to ask about what happened.) We met in a group on facebook and I have been seeing his posts before about this girl, how he called her "the love of his life" and ever since he died everything is just bleak. Based on his comments before, she had a great personality and she is smart and beautiful. And after that incident, he started having nightmares about a little girl he cannot save and all that. We are actually in a long distance relationship and he flew all the way here just to see me so I feel bad for even trying to ask him or doubt what he feels for me. I finally got the courage to inform him about what I feel towards it and I just end up blaming myself because he told me that thinking about it makes him so depressed. > Link to comment
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