Sm ms horror Posted December 14, 2019 Share Posted December 14, 2019 A little over a week ago, I realized many males that I was involved had no respect for me. I realized this at first when one male, whom I have fooled around with before, had invited me to hang out. I had not wanted to as I had no real interest in him and preferred it only to be a one-time thing. Well, eventually, he convinced me to come over by asking me for help with classwork. When I came over, he told me he had already finished but then asked if I would give him a blowjob. I left right after he had the nerve to say that. I have to worry about my classes, and this guy was wasting my time trying to get a blowjob? Well, I realized the only reason why anyone even treats me like this is that I allow people to think that by bad-mouthing myself and disrespecting myself as well. Unfortunately, later that night, I went over to someone whom I was very interested in. I have mentioned in other posts that I have gotten high before. This time it was unintentional as he offered me a hit of what I thought was a vape as I have never taken dabs before that moment. So I thought it was just nicotine. I was wrong. It was far more concentrated then what I have ever had, and I was not okay. We ended up having sex. That was the reason why I came over after all. And then He told me he was tired and had to work in the morning. So he dropped me off while I was very high and in no way okay. well in this state of mind I realized this guy that I like had no real interest in me and only saw me as an easy lay. so after this, I decided I need to treat myself with respect. It has been a week of avoiding sexual activity. would anyone give any other advice to help with my self-respect and being able to like myself? Link to comment
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