Tetris Posted November 10, 2019 Share Posted November 10, 2019 Hello, I wrote a letter to my ex and I'm unsure if I should send it. I guess I just want opinions on whether it is appropriate and it doesn't sound like I want to reconnect. I know it won't achieve anything but clear my mind. Hello. I would just like to say a few things and then I'll be gone. I don't want any trouble, I stay well away from it these days. I saw you on the street the other day. You look good. I would of just said hello but what's the point at this stage. You just ignored me like I didn't exist. I'm sorry for the way I acted around you in the past. I was just a dumb angry kid. I was not mature enough to handle life or relationships and I made many bad mistakes in both. I had little life experience and I did not react to events in a mature way and failed to do the right thing in most cases. I could just not express my feelings and emotions at the time and express what I wanted at the time. I know I am a damaged flawed person, but I don't need people making fun of me on the internet to know who I am. The stuff you wrote was terrible, why would you be with someone if you felt so poorly about them. I just really wanted you to hold my hand and show/tell me what I needed to change and do without judging me or making fun of me. I know what went on back in the day but I was in denial to be honest. I know everything that went on. How did you think treating me that way was acceptable? How do you think using me for a year was OK? Why were you just not honest? I would of accepted the truth. I should not have sent those emails. My brain imploded. I just wanted to say hello and ask how are you. You know it took me a lot to ask you to go to Germany with me after everything and you just blew me off anyway. I know, I know clubbing isn't very appealing but that wasn't the point. The sad thing is I would of come and saw you in England but we would of slept together and you would of told me you didn't love me and I would of just hurt myself all over again. You know you said to me once everyone just uses me back in the day which is ironic in a way because you did too. You were right looking back. I blame myself, I let myself be used and didn't stand up for myself. I don't let myself be treated like that anymore which is probably why I have fewer friends. You know I loved those people like family despite everything. They were not there when I needed them though which says a lot. People didn't tell me the truth back then because they thought I would get hurt. I would of got upset sure but I could of dealt with that at the time and moved on. Keeping stuff from me, hiding and lying to me was normal from everyone. People just wanted their cake and to eat it too, use me, abuse me, make fun of me and hurt me but still be friends even though they knew I would of cut and run if they were honest with me. And why would people do something they know would hurt me anyway? Not very good people if you ask me. I learnt from my dad you can not make people love you no matter how hard you try. I really did love you and if I'm honest I still do now. Anyway I wish you well in the future. Thank you for giving me a chance. Thanks and goodbye. Link to comment
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