libralover Posted October 14, 2019 Share Posted October 14, 2019 Hi, please don't judge me...let me start all of this by acknowledging how wrong I know this is. I am not looking to be told how wrong it is... I know how wrong it is. I am really just needing a release because there is absolutely no one in my real life that I can talk to this about. I need to get these feelings off my chest and maybe it will help me move on and forward. I have intense feelings for my husbands brother. Typing that....reading that....thinking that out loud freaks me out. I've known (we will call him S) for the same amount of years as my H. We all started out friends, so I was always friends with S and we are talking since high school. My H (bf at the time) always thought I had a thing for S just because we were friends and hung out a lot. There was never anything between us and I never looked at him that way...until recent years...the older we've all got and maybe my husband sensed something I never knew was there..... Over the years I've always been attracted to him...he's an attractive guy and I vibe really well with his personality but that was it. However over the last couple of years I've found myself constantly thinking about him and over the last year we were in a position where we lived near each other while my husband was away for work. Nothing ever happened, but we hung out a lot over the course of three months and kind of fell back into that role of being good friends. We had a handful of deep conversations including one about my husband thinking I had a thing for him and he told me his ex gf always thought he had a thing for me too. Neither of us denied it and we were both silent after that. I could feel electricity throughout my body during that moment. I think he and I tend to flirt without really flirting...it's hard to explain and I guess I never thought anything about it until recently when I started to notice how we lock eyes every time we are around each other. A deep 30 second lock that freaks me out, but in the most exciting way.... I don't even think I've ever locked eyes with my H in that way and I've tried and it doesn't feel the same... Sometimes I feel like we have this unspoken thing and I often wonder if he feels the same way about me..... I could and would never act on this... I would never do that to my H and our life and our families. But that doesn't stop these crazy feelings that I am having and I just need someone to knock some sense into me, but also understand that these feelings are REAL. I really just needed this release in a safe place. I've been hanging onto this for a few years. WHAT IS THIS? Link to comment
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