heartbroken84 Posted September 29, 2019 Share Posted September 29, 2019 Tonight I feel hurt and pain and jealousy. I have this friend who I have had an on and off again friendship for several years. The last few weeks I’ve been unhappy with some things she’s said and done. Mostly because if I’m not feeling well or need to cancel plans she gets very moody with me. And uses language like,” you’re going to flake on our plans today, yeah?” And the when I say I’m not feeling well, she gives me one word responses. I wasn’t feeling well today and wanted to cancel plans to stay home and rest. But after the one word responses and fear of her being upset I actually went to meet her up. We went to this event that she didn’t want to go alone to and then got dinner. At dinner I was talking about a mutual friend and said some opinions about the mutual friend. She said to me I don’t want to make a comment because you have loose lips. And she brought up two situations where I shared some things she said about others. These are situations in the past that I apologised for. It really hurt my feelings. Everytime I bring up something hurtful she’s said or done to me. She doesn’t say sorry I said that. She tries to bring up something hurtful I’ve done to her. Instead of saying I’m sorry I made you feel that way, she says sorry you feel that way. As if she doesn’t take any responsibility. She’s in a loving relationship and I’m not. Sometimes I feel maybe I’m jealous that being the type of person she is that she finds love and I’m always alone. We went to Target yesterday so I could grab a gift for my nephew birthday and she saw a heart shaped box and got two...she tells me oh I am getting one for my mom and my boyfriend and I’m going to put notes of all the things I love about them. It made me feel pretty lonely and sure that’s my insecurities. Also, Her boyfriend lives many miles away from her and makes weekend trips to go visit him but she won’t drive to my side of the bay stating oh well there’s not much to do on your side. Many times she just wants to go eat out with me or wants me to come with her to events because she doesn’t want to go alone and then complains that all we do is eat that I don’t go to events with her. It’s just becoming too much for me, and I’m tired of feeling like I’m the one who does bad things. And she’s never responsible. Link to comment
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