Rihannon Posted August 8, 2019 Share Posted August 8, 2019 I have cellulite, do you? And my problem with it is a bigger problem than the cellulite itself. This isn't really a request for advice, it's just a discussion and a hope for optimistic encouragement. I have cellulite on my upper thighs and bum, in the back and a little in the front of my thighs. I hate it so much. I am embarrassed to wear shorts or a bathing suit. And I have tried for years to make it go away. It is frustrating. I am of a low weight, and always have been of a healthy low weight. Technically I have been underweight at times, according to some overly simplified scales. But as an adult I always had it, ever since I was in my early 20s. I've never been overweight. It doesn't matter. My thighs have gotten larger with muscle or weight gain, and have shrunken back down again when I changed my workouts and diet. The cellulite was always there. I was a vegetarian for a decade. For a long time I ate almost no bread or potatoes. I've taken collagen supplements, antioxidants, I tried coffee exfoliation scrubs, all the stuff. I was on and off hormonal birth control since I was 20. It didn't matter. I don't smoke, I almost never drink. For a long time I didn't drink at all. I've been a runner, I've been a cardio machine gym-goer, a walker, I've taken ballet for years, I did thrice weekly HIIT for years. I drink a lot of water, eat lots of vegetables and healthy food, very little salt, very little carbs, practically no dairy. I weight train and do ballet and calisthenics, take 60 flights of stairs a day, 10000 steps a day. I dry brush. I massage, I moisturize. It does not matter. The cellulite was always there, through all of these different and differently healthy lifestyle changes. Basically, according to all the advice columns, I shouldn't have it. But I do, and I always did, as an adult. And something else. When I was a teenager I was so self-conscious about having pale skin that I was ashamed to show my body for that reason, back when I was a 100lb teen with no lumps on my legs at all. And then I got the cellulite and I was ashamed of that, too. Imagine if I were berating some other woman for her thighs and telling her that she should be ashamed of them. Ashamed?! How horrible that would be to treat another woman that way. So why am I treating myself this way? I am healthy. I am fit and able to do all these fun and active things! I don't have problems with my health. I don't experience pain. I should be so grateful. I should love my capable, pain-free legs! But moreover, I shouldn't care about these superficial things. This is shallow. This is a shallow, pointless obsession and I want to be over it. I pray for the strength of character to look past the superficial, in myself and in others, so that I value other people and value my life. Link to comment
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