rchubn Posted July 31, 2019 Share Posted July 31, 2019 I never really got along with my mom, I always got the impression she deals with me because she was obligated to, now that I'm adult she has no interest in me, she deals with me when she feels like it. She doesn't allow me to visit her and she doesn't visit me. My childhood was similar. She's always preferred my sister more and has always had more tolerance for her. I wasn't a bad kid, I've never gotten in trouble at school but for some reason I was the child she threatened to put out, I was the child that would get ignored whenever I did something wrong and the only child she used physical discipline with. I lived life knowing I could be easily discarded. I normally gravitated towards my grandmother because she showed me that "unconditional" parent love. Then she died. I grieved but now I'm starting to realize that I don't have that bond anymore. I don't have any older women to look up to or provide me with the warm motherly stuff. My mother has been very open with her dislike towards me. She's told me she doesn't like me plenty of times. I'm not interested in therapy because I don't think it's worth it. You can't teach motherly love, its either there at birth or not there at all. How can I cope with this? Link to comment
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