porenn Posted July 25, 2019 Share Posted July 25, 2019 I've been stressed out and I've been abusing food. For the past 6 months I have not had the willpower to stop myself even as my clothes get too tight. I'm so uncomfortable going to work because my clothes don't fit. I need to lose at least 10 lbs so that I can avoid a wardrobe malfunction. I've made lots of commitments to myself and then the moment that something comes up (and it always does) I turn to food. This week alone has been terrible. I left a meeting on Tuesday and went straight to the supermarket to pick up liquor and cheetos which I had for dinner. Its been like this for awhile. I don't feel bitter anymore but I have no idea how to channel my stress. I work for myself and its been a struggle to keep the doors open. This year for the first time in 10 years I had to pay staff late... and then in installments because vendors don't pay on time. Sometimes I feel angry with my staff when they do not help. They don't see the connection between collections and their salary. I would replace them if I thought I could improve upon them. My car was down for 6 weeks and I didn't have the money to fix it, license and insure it. I am the friend everyone turns to with their problems. I am overwhelmed with the problems of everyone else in addition to my own. I used to have a therapist but at some point that relationship flipped and she started sharing her problems with me. I used to have a mentor and at some point that relationship flipped and now he comes to me for help. Everyone comes to me for help. People are so inconsiderate. One night a friend of mine called me and I said that I was feeling tired helping people make decisions and I wanted a break and she just kept talking like she didn't hear me. Everyone relies on me and I have nobody on whom I can rely. There is nobody I can call. I am so alone. On top of that I am gaining so much weight. I am completely out of ideas for things to try. I started going to the gym again but I don't have the motivation or discipline to be consistent. Even when I do go to them gym I am eating far more than my exercise regimen can work off. none of my old tricks are working. On some level I just don't care how I look anymore. Link to comment
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