bodi8 Posted July 18, 2019 Share Posted July 18, 2019 hello, at first sorry for my english.. its not my first language. well, i met my wife before 6 years we have clicked since day one we loved each other for a year and we got married after that. my wife got pregnant within 2 months after our marriage, i was shocked because she was using plan b pill... and i wasn't ready ... but eventually, im glad i had my queen baby girl. after she when she gave birth, she asked traveled with her BFF to help her with her master's exam... but what i found out is they were hitting the clubs and she got a number of a guy that she met in the casino later on. when she came back, she told me that she met this guy and he is just a friend.. i checked his details and he was not what he told her " he lied about his name, his occupation, and everything" .. so i told her he's just a lier and she should not have a friends who is liars, she promised me to delete his number. a couple of months passed .. i couldn't sleep at night so i was watching my favorite tv show on the laptop... i look next to the laptop and i saw my black harddisk ... i just plugged it in and i was checking it for my old memories.. and what i FOUND is what made me here today! so, i clicked on the hard disk and my files weren't there... it was my wife's harddisk! it's just identical to mine !! im not the type of a guy who would like to investigate and check after her.... but i couldn't resist the file name! it was called XCALLER. so, i did what anyone would do... which is click on it ... and she had all her mobile phone calls recorded ! ... and yes i played them! i just wish i didn't she used to call her family and start complaining about me ... but it was all lies ! and i founud out that she once called me to tell me that shes going to spend few hours at her BFF's house ... while she went out with a guy to a cafe !!! she went with her BFF to some guys apartment to have some marijuana !! i mean .. i was shocked .. seriously shocked! there was zero proof of her cheating .... but i took the risk and confronted her, and all what i got is that im lying and nothing is true .. "she doesn't know that i checked the hard disk" so.. since then i just hated my wife ... i cant even have fun around her ... after a couple of months... she asked me for forgiveness.... and i immediately did forgive her. but whenever we try to have sex, i seriously have the image of her and another guy in my head. i started to hate her more and more but i couldn't tell her... i keep having this swings about how much i love her and hate her in the same time... i feel betrayed. she was trying to have sex with me more and more .... and whenever i try to have the condom on, she takes it off and she tells me that she's going to have plan b pill. after 2 months ... she's pregnant! so, i when i checked under the bed i found 7 plan B pills thrown without a seal ! she used to take them infront of me and then spits them under the bed !!! i went crazy! i literally had depression ... 16 months forward.. here i am writing this letter after our fight yesterday... we had fought because she just wants money,.... which i provide 24/7 and she just wants more! am i just stupid? why do i even love her ? ... i don't want my daughters to go throw what i went throw ... i don't want them to have a separated family ... i love my family... but what should i do? Link to comment
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