Annia Posted June 20, 2019 Share Posted June 20, 2019 Today I'm having a challenging day. As you know I'm working in another country and I'm living alone here far away from my family and friends. I'm very lucky to be here, to learn so much every day, to have met the people I've met (they are not many, but I've met a few people I really like) and I have a good job with a good salary, something that I was very hard to get in my country. I'm not complaining as this was my choice and I don't regret it in the greater scheme of things, but some days I feel incredibly lonely despite spending the whole day talking to patients and colleagues. The work volume has been crazy to a point that it's hardly manageable. We have several sick or maternity leave colleagues and I have so much responsibility sometimes and so much on me (because of the lack of people and the "fantastic" decision of my company in letting us work understaff for so long and taking so long to find replacements to save money, but I digress) that I've been feeling very anxious again. Sometimes I feel sick, I can't sleep properly and all this stress and pressure are getting to me to the point of it reflecting on the quality of my work (not anything serious, but I notice that). And I have to endure this until September which is when I'll have holidays and visit home. On top of this I'm working on a third language which I've improved a lot and have professional fluency in, but still makes it all even more tiring. So today I was feeling very stressed (and irritated). My boss asked me to work several days a week at another place (it's normal to "loan" professionals to other places of the same chain), which made me very nervous because I'm already stressed at a place I'm used to (my workplace), and now I have to be stressed at a place I don't know with people I don't know with services I'm not used to. My usual self would see this as a learning opportunity and a good challenge and chance to network, which it is, but this added up to my stress. Also, I'm responsible for a very sensitive and important service at work that I need to be on top of and pay very close attention to because mistakes can happen and they're dangerous but I hardly have time because I have million other things to do and some colleagues well, don't help. So having to work at two places for a while and keep the same function at the same time it's not ok. So I talked to my boss calmly and told him that yes, I would work both at this place and the other place (I could refuse as I'm not obligated, but the smartest decision is to accept and he had already told them I was the best person to help them because of my experience in some services that my colleagues have not) but under one condition, he needs to get someone to help me at that service I'm responsible for as I'm not capable and are not given conditions to perform a good job and that I don't feel safe working on something so sensitive under these conditions, when I am responsible for so many other things at the same time and so many people depend on me and interrupt me so many times and the amount of patients we have now is insane. He said he totally agreed with me and that he himself would help me and support me and that I'd be able to divide my share of that work with him or someone else. I should be relieved but I just came home and cried. And today I almost bursted in tears at work when I made a mistake (nothing important, just registered something wrong which made a colleague waste time looking for it). I had planned to study the language today as I've decided to take an official exame to prove my level at the language and my writing is too weak for that exam and I had also planned on studying some stuff for work, but I've spent the afternoon crying in the sofa and can't focus. Link to comment
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