ReaperOfGrim Posted June 3, 2019 Share Posted June 3, 2019 It's been nearly 2 months since I met a girl I'd been talking to for a month on a dating app for the first date I'd been on in 2 years since my ex of 5 years left. As anxious as I was leading up to the date, it went incredibly. I'm 32 and she's 28. We had connection, chemistry, and had more in common with her than I do with any of my friends. The date lasted 4 hours before she suggested going back to my place. We got to my place and played guitars for an hour and watched a show together. Things finally got physical and we began making out for whole before moving to the bed room. At that point however, I had been awake for almost 24 hours and couldn't maintain an erection. As humiliating as this was, I assured her it wasn't her and she seemed ok and like she was into the idea of seeing me in the future. This was the last time I spoke to her. She ghosted me. About a day afterwards when I realized she was ghosting me, I thought to myself "well this sucks. But it was just one date. I should be over it in a week". I guess I was numb or it hasn't sunk in yet, because I did NOT anticipate the emotional pain I've suffered every day since. I don't think I can put into words how humiliating and devastating it has been to be ghosted by the only girl I'd been with in 2 years, whom I was REALLY into on a physical and mental level because of an issue with manhood. This has spiraled me into a full blown depression over the course of the last 2 months. I cannot stop thinking about this girl for even 1 minute. I've lost 10 lbs, I can't sleep, I cry for hours every night, I can't watch tv/movies or do any of the things I used to enjoy. Even my coworkers and managers have noticed a major difference in me. I've checked all the "natural depression remedies" you'll find on the internet. I've started exercising 5 days a week. Eating healthy. Cut porn/ masturbation. Gone on 4 dates with 3 women. Spending time with friends and family. Going out alone and actually socializing/ making new friends. Got laid last week. And still this girl is on my mind all day and night and I can't stop thinking about wanting her and getting back together with her. I went to the dr to double check that everything is ok with me on a physical level. We checked and he's certain it was being tired that night that caused the performance issues. He prescribed me pills incase it happens again, and chantix and wellbutrin to help me quit smoking and hopefully help with the depression. I also intend on scheduling a session edith a therapist soon. Yet even at this level. 2 months later after a SINGLE date. My mind is entirely consumed by thoughts of this girl and how I can get with her. What can I do? Link to comment
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