mollysam Posted May 1, 2019 Share Posted May 1, 2019 I (20f) am talking to my ex later today, because we are attempting to be friends. He is the one that wanted to be friends and I want to be friends just to at least feel like he is still there. I am not mad at him and he is not mad at me, we ended things quite mutually, I am just so upset. We were long distance and that is why I initiated the breakup, because I could not handle not seeing him for long amounts of time. Though I initiated it, there were unsolvable issues on both our ends that would not allow our relationship to work. The breakup happened 2 days ago and it still hurts. I have been crying all the time, just because I am upset that he is not in my life anymore. But in the past 2 days, I have gotten a little better. What really sucks is that this is occurring right as college finals are starting, and it is throwing me off my game. I did not go into the breakup conversation with the intention to breakup, so I didn't even see it coming. I attempt to study for all these really important exams and I just find myself feeling choked up every time I think about him, which is very frequent. Is there any way to reduce this feeling of constant distraction and sadness? Also, I am dreading the FaceTime call with him, because a) I know that it won't be the same vibe as before but I still have feelings for him, I just know that I cannot handle the situation b) it might possibly be the last time I will talk to him, so I already feel like I will cry. I have this huge exam later today and I had not let my relationship impact my studies until right now, the worst time possible. But my mind can't focus on anything else. How can I prepare myself for the call today? My goal is to a) not think about this all day b) not cry while talking to him and c) generally keep my cool. I am scared that I will not be able to do those things, and that I would regret it. But I am the one that reached out to talk to him, I wish he was still mine. Link to comment
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