Annieeee Posted April 12, 2019 Share Posted April 12, 2019 My ex boyfriend and I were together for a year, we met in university halls and currently live together because of that. We are very close but a month ago he started to feel distant and we broke up. He said he was confused about how he was feeling and didn’t think he wanted to be in a relationship anymore, with anyone not just me. He has told me he still loves me and there was nothing wrong with our relationship but that he just wants to be alone for a while. He is a very social person but has started shutting himself away from everyone, his friends and me included. He has told me I’m his best friend and doesn’t want to lose me, he still wants to be best friends. Over the past couple of days we have been talking more and he seemed to be getting more back to himself, however when I tried to talk about the subject of us he told me right now he feels comfortable as friends and still doesn’t know what he wants. I believe that this is a real reason and not just an excuse- he compared not knowing what he wants to choosing what to eat, sometimes you know you want to eat something but can’t figure out what it is. I love him very much and I’ve never seen a future (getting married and having children) with anyone until him. I have quite bad anxiety but it all goes away when I see him, even now. I know I shouldn’t base all of my happiness on one person but he is the only person that can take it all away. I am happy to just be able to see him and spend time with him even without the relationship, but it isn’t enough. I miss him so much and want to be with him but that’s not what he wants. He will be moving back home after we finish this year of Uni and I’m scared I will lose him forever. Each day is different- some I feel positive and some I just feel awful. I don’t know what to do. I’ve never loved someone so much and can really see a future with him. I don’t want to let him go but should I or do I keep waiting even though he might never come back? Many people have told me to move on but I can’t, I want my future to have him in it. Link to comment
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