kdawillso Posted March 18, 2019 Share Posted March 18, 2019 A little background……this is the only relationship of my life. I’m talking first boyfriend, first kiss…everything. We’ve been together for a year and a half. I almost broke up with him last May because of the constant inconsistences with what he says and what he does (i.e. telling me he loves me and then going weeks without seeing/talking to me when he lives 7 miles away.) He has ADHD and that is cause for problems too, but there’s more. This next piece of information may be a little TMI but I think it is significant… Since we’ve been together (the whole year and a half), he has never cum during sex. Ever. Not once. But he does by his own hand...when I’m not there. And I have been generous and adventurous (blow jobs, risky places, whatever), but nothing. He’s currently taking testosterone because we’ve both been concerned about it, but now I think I have the answer. He called me by his ex’s name shortly after sex this weekend and then tried to tell me he didn’t even know someone by that name. I called bull. He said my step brother has that name. I called bull again because there are pics on Facebook with his ex in it and her name is tagged. He then told me that a girl he thought was hot in high school had that name. I told him not to lie to me and he finally admitted that it was his ex’s name. He then admitted he thinks about her from time to time. He has also told me of their relationship: he was so nervous around her that he never was himself (for 6 years) and he just did whatever she liked to do, following her around like a puppy…until she cheated on him. He had the audacity this weekend to tell me that it had been “true love” between them and that was his excuse for calling me her name. Now, I can’t help but wonder if the reason he never cums is because he still is in-love with her. I mean, since we met I had suspected that he was just dating to appease his mom, who desperately wants him married. It was just something about the things he says. Like how our relationship is better than loneliness. I love him and we are best friends on top of being lovers. I love his family and he loves mine. But I feel now that he isn’t giving me his whole heart because part of it still belongs to his ex and I deserve 100%. Also, he was supposed to move-in next weekend. I’ve decided to cancel that (temporary? Or forever?) because…how can I sleep in the same bed with him with all these doubts in my head? Anyway, I just wanted other outsider insight on this matter. Am I overthinking it? He tells me he loves me all the time and I believe it. But I don’t want to be second best to a girl he couldn’t be himself around. Thoughts? Link to comment
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