Beautyisthin26 Posted January 23, 2018 Share Posted January 23, 2018 I just turned 21 a month ago. I have a stable job, a few bills here and there, nothing too horrible. I have a boyfriend I’ve been with for 3 years as of today, who’s been there- sort of- in my moments of depression/obstacles/anxieties... yet I am unhappy. I’m sad so many days out of the week, if not all of them. I’m angry and frustrated and tired. I’m unmotivated, depressed, sluggish. I keep thinking that the sadness will go away when things “get better for me”. I feel alone surrounded by the people that have raised me, around the person who swears to love me. I feel like I don’t know who I am anymore. I know; how cliche, right? I’m afraid to start taking the anti-depressants my doctor prescribed to me. The way they “relieve” my symptoms isn’t exactly how I thought they would. They make me feel numb, I’m not tired, not sad, but I’m not energetic or happy... I’m just... there. All I’m trying to say is, I wouldn’t mind if my life ended today or tomorrow. I have nothing to look forward to anyways. I’m not trying to round up pity from any of you who might read this, I’m just voicing what I’ve kept in for so long here, where no one really knows who I am, where no one will actually care. Link to comment
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