xyzy Posted January 6, 2018 Share Posted January 6, 2018 I met somebody over the internet a while ago. He lived too far away for anything to ever really work, but it didn't stop things from going further than they should've. Different to anybody else I'd ever met. Communicated well, made me feel good about myself, was sweet in a kinda dorky way, and we laughed lots. Discussed deep things, shared a lot of things, we were there for each other when we needed somebody and as unintentional as it was, fell for each other hard (or so it seemed, especially with things said and time spent). It felt like everything a relationship should be, and I really enjoyed his presence. Granted the distance was a pain, but there were options to overcome that in time, and that's what I thought we were working to. Now, about a couple of months ago, he starts behaving weirdly. Backing off, being distant. Conversations were suddenly hard work. His reasoning was that he'd realised how invested he'd become in something that was so precarious. Distance, his situation, my situation. I pressed a little further into things, turns out he has concerns about his attraction to me, because I don't have a perfect waist ratio, and I don't have "that certain look" to me. He discussed things about his past, how his heart wanted it, but his head didn't, yet he'd never loved so easily as this. Maintained that he was struggling to work on that, and wasn't sure he wanted to. I've tried to stay level and hear him out, and I have to an extent, but of course with things like that being said after he'd already declared over and over he "adored me", it did make me angry. I still am, to be honest. So, to cut a long story short, I hurt him with some harsh truths, and he's now blocked every form of contact. Right outcome, right? My head says different. I can't get my mind off of things, and I'm finding the void he left absolute torture right now. Why? I don't know. Somebody tell me to suck it up and stop being so stupid, please? He's an ass and it'll never work, so why am I so chewed up over this?! :moody: Link to comment
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