Lottxa Posted December 6, 2017 Share Posted December 6, 2017 There was this boy I began dating May of last year, he meant absolutely everything to me. At the beginning of this year, his mate had revealed to me that he had feelings for me and I was feeling unsatisfied in my relationship with the boy I thought I was obsessed with. And so, not knowing any better, I decided to pursue his mate. His BEST mate. That is just about as low as you can get, and so this mate and I were hiding this relationship until someone close to me had found out and went to the boy I was with. It had finally struck me that I cheated on someone and hurt someone in the cruelest way possible. I was caught in a lie, and it was just awful. I couldn't live with myself, I began to think about every possible reason why I did what I did but I was in a really unstable state of mind. When he found out, he came up to me to confront me and all I could say is, ''I think we should just be friends.'' I have never forgiven myself, but since that time this boy has taken me back and I couldn't be more thankful. Much recently, I have found myself falling more and more in love with him again. However, ever since March when that all went down he has stuck to not wanting to get back into a relationship. While I completely understand his concern for getting back into a relationship, it still sucks. Also recently, we seem to be arguing about everything and anything. I know nothing I can do will take back what I've done and thw pain I've caused but I truly thought we were making progress, all this fighting has been setting us back and breaking my heart. I truly feel as if we won't get back to how we were, it is like he doesn't care anymore. I think he has feelings for me, but I don't know how strong they are and if they are the same as mine. I don't know whether to end it entirely, but if I did I would be losing my best friend. But if I stay, everytime I try and talk about committing again he just refuses to talk about it or go into it. What am I supposed to do, is there any hope for us? Link to comment
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