GodHelpASista Posted October 10, 2017 Share Posted October 10, 2017 I feel like I’m on a downward spiral and I don’t even know where to start. I don’t want to bore anybody so I’ll keep this as short as I possibly can. I am the most negative person I know. I have always been insecure, jealous, and everything that goes with it. I can’t think of anything positive in any aspect of life, something negative always takes over and I think about it until I think myself into a depressed mood. Especially my relationship. Been with my partner for 2 years I love him dearly he is a great partner everything I could ask for in a partner. we were “unofficial” for almost a year, he had been in a terrible relationship which ended horribly and I understood he didn’t want to jump into anything serious as he hadn’t been in a relationship since, (4years prior). Last night, although everything was fine we were talking about our days and how Work had been etc. Then I blurt out “did you sleep with anyone in that time we were unofficial” he got mad because he said I always bring up the past and am always negative for no reason. I believe he slept with someone before we got together but he says he didn’t. I’ve got no reason to doubt him and even if he did then surely it’s irrelevant because we weren’t together, he’s always been loyal to me since we’ve been a couple, and I just get these ridiculous ideas in my head about the past, and things in the future which could happen but haven’t happened yet. This is about the 100th time I’ve argued with him over something like this when my thoughts take over. My other half is getting seriously tired of my and giving him the third degree about things that I think happened before we got together. I am behaving extremely irrationally, I am insanely jealous and I can’t stop my mind from thinking the worst scenario in every situation even when I’ve got no reason to. Please can someone give me some constructive advice as I feel I’m ruining my relationship and possibly my life. I have considered counselling and/or therapy, I just don’t know where to start. I feel sorry for my boyfriend, I am out of control. I don’t really know why he is still with me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
This topic is now archived and is closed to further replies.