Pretzel Posted October 9, 2017 Share Posted October 9, 2017 So I have it quite crystal clear in my head that I miss you DOES NOT mean I want to be in a relationship with you again. But I am wondering what the harm would be, after hearing this, in asking him to talk in person. I want to ask him if he's willing to put faith in us to work through the issues. His words were actually 'I miss you. I was telling my friend about you earlier, all nice things.' (He's overseas right now reconnecting with his old group of friends from when he used to live there.) I've been NC but I sent one message saying "Hello" in a moment of weakness at 2am the other night and he responded instantly. And that's as far as the conversation went. I didn't write back after he said this, because I was scared of saying too much, saying something I'd regret. I miss him so much it is killing me. I've never loved anyone more beyond my immediate family. I even wrote a list today, of all the things he did in the relationship today that I hated and that frustrated me to remind myself why I used to pick fights. I thought it would help for moving on. But it hasn't done much for me. Perhaps the 'denial' phase is cycling back to me. But I just want to talk to him, see his face again, hug him again. I love him so much. I'm bursting with emotion. I was due to start therapy on Wednesday and now she's cancelled today and asking to rearrange for a week later. I'm so annoyed about this. I know I shouldn't be dependent on therapy to sort my head out but I was really looking forward to it. I am just desperate to stop hurting this badly and stop the turmoil in my head. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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