Confused Belle Posted September 19, 2017 Share Posted September 19, 2017 Hi all, I have asked for advice of course but I'm not looking for harsh 'get urself together' comments. Not that I can't handle truths but I am fully aware I should move on and forget this person but the trouble is no matter how much I try or don't try, he's there still.... I met a guy a year ago and we instantly clicked! Agreed, we were both out drinking so most people would likely say it was just lust. Maybe it was but I felt a strong connection. I was in a bit of a messy situation at the time and got drunk and upset etc all in one evening and ended up kissing a couple of other people but I literally felt nothing! So when I saw this same guy from the start of the night later on he said he'd seen me kiss other ppl so he wasn't special. Granted I get where he was coming from but I genuinely hadn't felt anything in so long apart from when I kissed him. I saw him several nights out after this and tried messaging to meet as friends..... sober..... and he said yes he'd like to but never committed to it. Likely due to my personal circumstances. We stopped talking etc for 6 months after he said enough is enough and I should leave him be. So I did. I then got a random message saying Hi and that he hadn't seen me around town in a while so he was worried and thought he'd check in. After our last messages I never thought I'd hear from him again!! We've seen each other out and kissed over the times and it's genuinely really passionate. He has the biggest smile when he sees me. But he's completely different when we message and blanks me. Like he doesn't want more from me. I know most ppl reading this will be like... he only wants one thing, but he didn't even want that. Well he did... but I was the one hinting at it. I honestly feel there's something there and others have said it too from when they see him with me. But nothing comes of it. It's driven me mad for the past 15 months and no matter how hard I try I can't forget him. He says I'm such a nice person but when I message asking him to just say why he doesn't want more from me he ignores me rather than manning up and just saying. I know already in my head ur all screaming at me to get over it but I have tried and so far he's still in my heart. I wish he wasn't as it hurts. When I think I'm getting over it all I dream about him and it's all real again 😔 Please help x Link to comment
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