JellyfishXxx Posted September 16, 2017 Share Posted September 16, 2017 Because of different reasons, I had to take time out from studies. But now and also due to really bad upbringing, I really don't have anywhere to go and nothing to do. This is true even if I work. I come home alone, I find it hard to make and keep friends, to have fun, but I want to. I have been stuck in the room for three months and more for an entire day, every day, only getting up to eat something and being on internet. I tried volunteering, I tried work before. Sometimes it makes me feel worse because I just have to do the work but can't socialise like normal people. Every day I hardly get by. I have been looking for help so much and everything where I live is useless. I am not depressed because I have drive and the wish but I am this way. Everybody I know has friends/colleagues to go out with every single day even if they're not working. I really have nowhere to go and only meet people when I "have to do" something. I feel broken. Even the one girl I see a few times monthly, when I meet her I often don't know what to say, what to do and it feels like I have to "amuse someone" or have a plan in place. Otherwise I'd just be silent. I just want to live normally and have fun like everyone else. I want to know why this is happening. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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