Hexonexxonx Posted September 12, 2017 Share Posted September 12, 2017 January, I confess to my gf of 3 years that I've only been with escorts before sexually. She attempts to break up with me, I ask if that's what she really wants and she confesses she kissed another guy. We talk it out, like an idiot I tell her she can talk to the guy and sort it out. Stuff happens again. Finally we reach an agreement that I'll get with someone else and she'll go the full way with this guy. It was 100% my idea and I thought she'd get it out of her system and I'd maybe somewhat understand what "cheating" was like. I felt bad despite having permission. It was always a fantasy of mine for her to get with another guy etc or have a mmf threesome but she was so against cheating and so loyal in every facet of life that, that duality was the turn on. Doing said fantasy with said guy was obvious mistake. She dumps me, has sex with the guy twice. I take her back in may. Surprise, in August she confesses that she's given the guy head 3 times and sex 4. Every time we go to break up, it doesn't happen and she convinces me that she loves me etc. my mum stayed with a serial cheater until breaking point and I feel this karma for how I treated her for staying. I just keep telling her to admit she doesn't love me anymore and move on, but she seems so convincing and sorry and I always back out. I feel so pathetic and worthless I think about suicide all day, as I'm struggling in other areas of my life as well. Any advice is appreciated. Link to comment
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