squid23 Posted September 9, 2017 Share Posted September 9, 2017 Tomorrow I will break up with my girlfriend. She gave me feelings that I never received before, but I just can't keep going. She makes me happy at times, but she pushed me to my limits and I don't see a future with her anymore. Problem is: what do I do now? For many years, ever since I was a kid, I thought that work and my career were the path to happiness. After realizing my career dreams I realized that I was more sad and lonely than ever. I wanted to kill myself, but then I remembered about the love I heard about in the movies. I decided to look for a girlfriend and after some time I found her. I decided to dedicate my life to her and her happiness, and seeing her smile give a purpose in my life. Now however I realized that she's too needy, to childish, too spoiled, too anxious and this relationship became toxic. I know there's no future with her, so what options do I have? Both career and love gave me the illusion of happiness, now what should I live for? I have a sister I care much about, and I also have very sincere friends that would do everything for me and would be very happy to see me. I don't want to make them sad by killing myself. I know that this is silly: I mean, if I kill myself, everything ends, so I won't see them sad, but still somehow I cannot accept it. I feel it would be a very selfish move. Still my life has no purpose again, and I'm tired, very tired. What should I do? Should I move away from my friends and my sister until they forget about me and then end my life? Would that work? Or am I overthinking and I should just end my life? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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