Should I keep going with my life?

[squid23]

Tomorrow I will break up with my girlfriend. She gave me feelings that I never received before, but I just can't keep going. She makes me happy at times, but she pushed me to my limits and I don't see a future with her anymore.

 

Problem is: what do I do now?

 

For many years, ever since I was a kid, I thought that work and my career were the path to happiness. After realizing my career dreams I realized that I was more sad and lonely than ever. I wanted to kill myself, but then I remembered about the love I heard about in the movies. I decided to look for a girlfriend and after some time I found her. I decided to dedicate my life to her and her happiness, and seeing her smile give a purpose in my life. Now however I realized that she's too needy, to childish, too spoiled, too anxious and this relationship became toxic. I know there's no future with her, so what options do I have? Both career and love gave me the illusion of happiness, now what should I live for?

 

I have a sister I care much about, and I also have very sincere friends that would do everything for me and would be very happy to see me. I don't want to make them sad by killing myself. I know that this is silly: I mean, if I kill myself, everything ends, so I won't see them sad, but still somehow I cannot accept it. I feel it would be a very selfish move. Still my life has no purpose again, and I'm tired, very tired. What should I do? Should I move away from my friends and my sister until they forget about me and then end my life? Would that work? Or am I overthinking and I should just end my life?

[Keyman]

Have you spoken to some about your your general negative outlook on life? On your desire to end everything and your overall depression? I'm not talking about a bunch of strangers scattered around the world, but a professional that can hel[ to get to the bottom of your problems?

 

In answer to your question. Yes, of course you should keep going with your life. Just because you achieved a couple of goals in your life and they didn't make you happy, doesn't mean there isn't happiness out there for you. Perhaps you are expecting 'things or achievements or love' to make you feel happy, when the reality is that your happiness is tied to yourself. It's everyone's goals to find happiness and everyone is different. But you'll never find happiness, the true happiness inside if you give up.

[Mandala]

No squid 23, you should NOT end your life. No matter how sad you feel right now (and trust me, most people on this forum knows something about pain), things WILL change. You will find purpose again.

Please, call this number right now. It's confidential and they know how to help you. 1-800-273-8255

 

You are important. ❤️

[Rustysuit]

You seem to be struggling with depression and you're doing what depressed people do: they push away the people closest to them.

 

I would seek professional help before breaking with my GF. It seems you're going through some hard times...and that's all right, just don't do anything rash.

[AlexLee]

There is plenty of things to live for - family, friends, hobbies/passions, you may found another career you enjoy, or meet another girl who can make you happy.

 

However, it seems there may be other issues you need to address with your girlfriend and yourself if the problem with your relationship is that she is too needy, too childish, too spoilt, and too anxious - why do you see her like this, does she act like this when you bring up your depression?

 

Do not end your life, but seek professional help immediately and talk to someone. It will definitely help.

[Schockobaerin]

You are depressed, please get help ASAP, believe me I was in your position and your loved ones are never going to forget you and they would suffer always for your death, because they would feel guilty they couldnt help you... I promise you there is a light at the end of the tunnel, I know everything is painful and gray now, and the only means to end it is suicide, but its not like that, you have people (your gf included) that love you very much and can help you.. When suicidal thoughts come with depression is time to seek help as soon as possible, believe me is not the easy way, is the painful and coward way.

[foolishsunsets]

I think the purpose of life is to find something you consider worth living for

Of course you should keep going with your life. Depression is difficult and it always will be, but there is a way out. Talk to loved ones and get professional help please, it'll make a huge impact on your life.

If you still love your girlfriend I'd suggest you sit down and talk to her about your needs. Maybe that will help. Sometimes people aren't aware of their neediness and she possibly will give you the space you need if you ask for it. However if it doesb't make you happy anymore you should obviously end the relationship

[kyber]

You need to speak to a doctor. Many many people have been where you are and have been cured through medicine and therapy. Tell yourself you need to dig deep and be stronger with yourself, you want to live a happy life, you have to keep going, you can't give up.

[Bladesofsteel]

Dude.. so young.. don't do that.. there is so much you can experience and to live for. Trust me, I had those thoughts before. So glad I pushed through and got help. Please seek some help.