Ellexiia17 Posted August 11, 2017 Share Posted August 11, 2017 I'll be honest, I never thought my life would come to the point of making anonymous posts on a website to look for support. I feel like I can't trust anybody who knows me, I don't know where to turn. Nothing is how it should have been. I'm 22 years old, I married last year to a man older than me. Everything was perfect, I fell hard and fast and believed it was going to be forever. He mentioned marriage and I naively thought this was it and I was sold. I have a son from a previous relationship and he has 3 children from his - I have always been dead set on wanting another child so we agreed this in the early days, if things were to take off. Fast forward down the line, were married. 8 months after the wedding I find out half of what he's told me has been lies.. mostly loads of small ones, but a number or really big lies aswell. I fall apart, I don't know the man I've just committed to spending my life with. We split for a month, I struggle the month by myself and take him back. He promises that's it, no more lies and to my knowledge he's been true to his word. However, it's like since I found out the truth he's started to display aspects of his personality that were hidden before. His patience has gone, his romantic side has disappeared. All of a sudden his parenting style has totally changed to a style that I just can't agree with. I find myself now not wanting a child with this man. Most the time I'm okay and I work through it, but late at night when the house is quiet I lay on the sofa and cry. I feel totally alone. I can't leave, I can't afford to and I never wanted to consider divorce. I just feel trapped and empty. My son keeps me going and I never let him see me like this. I just hurt. Totally. I don't know where to turn anymore. Link to comment
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