KarinaK Posted July 17, 2017 Share Posted July 17, 2017 He said he "probably wouldn't live long" if I left. Then he stayed in bed for 5 days, wouldn't eat, called in sick to work. I went to my job as usual, felt strong and certain at first then the same old guilt crept back in. I apologized for saying I wanted to move out. In couples therapy now. Scared to tell him how much I want to leave again because the guilt gets me every time. Thing is, I never wanted to date exclusively or marry him. After after every time he suggested things - moving in, getting married at City Hall to save on taxes - I tried to protest at first. Guilt always wore me down. How do I fix this part of myself so I can leave a relationship that has always made me feel sad and lonely? I'm really scared I'll never get out. Thoughts of suicide are starting to cross my mind. But I feel like a monster for not loving him back. Looking for suggestions from anyone who may have walked this path themselves. Thanks. Link to comment
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