chimva96 Posted July 17, 2017 Share Posted July 17, 2017 Hello all,I was dumped about 2 months ago. Post break up I was in such a frantic state. I was also withdrawing from heavy marijuana use. Reflecting on it, I feel like I didn't touch base and apologize for everything. I was mostly focusing on what tipped the scale and trying to win her back by telling her how I am becoming a new man (pathetic, I know). Not to mention I now realize there was more damage done than I initially thought. I have almost zero expectations for reconciliation but would rather just communicate on a human-human level my wrongdoings and apologize. Simply, in detail I want to state that I realized how I hurt her and I understand why how she felt and why she made her decision wishing her well in thew future. I guess this is my craving for closure. It has been about a month of NC and and 2 months since the BU. I'm not sure why I want to redeem myself even though I understand we may never get back together or even talk again. I would be breaking NC but I would be fine if these are my last words forever. Is this a good idea? I feel like I shouldn't care about what she thinks of me but for some reason I want to end our chapter with a decent image of me. She is such a sweet and intelligent girl but I'm not sure what's going on in her head or what she currently thinks of me. Will I actually feel closure or will it result in a cycle of me never feeling satisfied? Link to comment
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