jumpstart Posted July 16, 2017 Share Posted July 16, 2017 its taken me a while to do this, I am usually level headed and can figure things out myself but in this case I don't know what to do anymore...my issue is I think I have fallen in love with a girl I met as an escort (sorry, I know...but it happened) earlier this year and I am pretty sure she doesn't think of me the same way... its embarrassing for me to say this but I thought maybe someone here might have gone thru a similar situation of really liking a person and them not liking you back to same way... I can't talk about this to family or friends so I am alone on this one except for you guys here...Lately I have been so depressed and sad, and I keep thinking about her. I am not crazy or anything or desperate, i'm 36, handsome as i am told... university educated and i own several businesses, i am single by choice never bothered with anything serious...but here i am now... here is my story: I met this girl earlier this year saw her a few times, she gives me her personal number and asks me to go to dinner sometime, at first I was hesitant but agreed after few days of thinking (i thought it was a trap). I found her beautiful, she has such intense eye's and her gaze is intoxicating to me....she is so fun, compassionate, energetic and has a really addicting voice I can listen to for hours...I like her company even tho there is a big age difference (she is 23). she has said many times that she liked me and said we had a really good connection...I just went with the flow at first and thought it was cool...we meet once a week or sometimes more and we discussed an arrangement, she said she liked spending time with me and asked if i could still help her out financially so we agreed (we could spend as much time together). anyways, everything sounded professional and I didn't really think I would want more than this... time passes and she starts telling me her story and find out that she's in canada alone on a tourist visa from the eastern block in europe, dropped out of university here, and parents back home apparently cut her off...then unbelievably, she tells me she is living with a room mate in a condo and later tells me that he's a lawyer in his low 40's? (she was quite timid when mentioning his age...) I don't ask any of this as I don't really want to know, and actually wish I never knew this because I think it made me jealous (and I hate that, i'm not usually like that!) later she tells me they were kinda together before but broke up, and now just are roomates? always refers to him as a roomate when talking about him, she said she might get back together eventually (said she liked him and he apparently helped her with her drinking problem) she says that now she is going to get residency here thru the common law relationship via co-lease thru him...(how does that work....part of me thinks she is using him whoknows) I don't understand why an older lawyer would do this or let her escort if they were together and often tells me she hates it... anyways I think this last part made me jealous and I can't get her out of my mind now, I didn't think of her as a GF or anything when we first met...I don't know what happened its like I was put under her spell...also never thought she would be interested in me in that way because I am old but then she tells me about this guy and I think why not me... I often think how lucky this guy is...why would she be with a guy twice her age? now i wonder how i get myself in these complicated situations... I like her too much that I see her as an angel that can do no wrong...she has no idea how I feel about her, I never told her anything...I figure whats the point? The most I have said is that I really liked her and want to see her do well... but sometimes I think maybe its actually better for me this way anyways...she is so young whoknows whats going thru her mind... i hope someone can understand and can offer advice... Link to comment
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