scaredduck Posted June 23, 2017 Share Posted June 23, 2017 I recently got dumped. Few months ago. It was my first ever relationship, but second time being dumped. Perhaps I shouldn't have gotten back with him, but he really wanted to be back together so I gave it another shot. I don't regret that decision. I've learned a lot about myself through being in a relationship. I've really missed him. But in retrospect..... I really did feel terrible when I was with him. For the best part of a year, I felt like I was on eggshells, I felt unimportant. I'd see him once a week - I looked forward to seeing him yet he clearly didn't care if we saw each other or not (he said this). If I stayed over more than once in one week, I felt lucky, or I felt like I was in his way. i don't think you should have to feel so on edge in a relationship. He knew how I felt and didn't offer any reassurance, he would just get angry at me whenever I felt unwelcome. when I think about his tone, how he would word things, how irritated/angry he would get with me... I just feel a knot in my stomach ... the same knot I had almost consistently throughout that relationship. i know it's normal to feel alone/lonely. I've hung out with friends since the breakup (made new friends too) and I know that I'm happy when I'm busy. But I'm susceptible to low moods, I saw a counsellor about it and it did help. I get so low sometimes that I can't do anything. ....I just want to be wanted! So..... sometimes I see glimpses of light at the end of the tunnel. will I ever find someone and be like 'this is what I was missing!' ... will somebody treat me better? I mean, surely... hopefully. But for now I just feel really lonely Link to comment
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