12Network Posted June 17, 2017 Share Posted June 17, 2017 I have been doing so well, I hadn't cried in a week. I don't know what happened. Today I woke up and missed him so much and just really wanted to call him. I don't know why, I didn't even dream about him last night. I checked his facebook (I unfriended him a while back but I can still see some stuff he doesn't have private) and he's moving to another country. I don't know why it bothers me so much, he has been living in a another country for a year and the last we talked he was trying to stay there, so I don't know why it bothers me that he's moving to another different country. I guess if I'm being honest, I didn't even realize it but I was hoping that if it didn't work out he would come home and we might reconnect. I was hoping that maybe he was missing me or was somewhat unhappy. But instead, it just made me realize that he's not unhappy and he doesn't miss me. He doesn't miss me so much that he's decided to move to a different country rather than have to come back here. And so my doing better has been destroyed. I just don't understand how I can be so broken and he's fine. I don't understand how you can share so much with a person and then one day they just decide they don't care about you anymore... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Thani Posted June 17, 2017 Share Posted June 17, 2017 Maybe it's the day...I feel the same today... Didn't cry for almost two weeks, started to feel better but today it's sososo bad. I hope it's gonna be better tomorrow... and I wish the same for you! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
figureitout23 Posted June 17, 2017 Share Posted June 17, 2017 I have been doing so well, I hadn't cried in a week. I don't know what happened. Today I woke up and missed him so much and just really wanted to call him. I don't know why, I didn't even dream about him last night. I checked his facebook (I unfriended him a while back but I can still see some stuff he doesn't have private) and he's moving to another country. I don't know why it bothers me so much, he has been living in a another country for a year and the last we talked he was trying to stay there, so I don't know why it bothers me that he's moving to another different country. I guess if I'm being honest, I didn't even realize it but I was hoping that if it didn't work out he would come home and we might reconnect. I was hoping that maybe he was missing me or was somewhat unhappy. But instead, it just made me realize that he's not unhappy and he doesn't miss me. He doesn't miss me so much that he's decided to move to a different country rather than have to come back here. And so my doing better has been destroyed. I just don't understand how I can be so broken and he's fine. I don't understand how you can share so much with a person and then one day they just decide they don't care about you anymore... First off - ((hugs)) im sorry you're dealing with this. You lost hope in something you didn't fully realize you were stil holing onto. That hurts and that's ok, but letting it go will do you better in the long run. Second - avoid peeking from here on out. It's kinda like touching a hot stove. You got burned, it hurts and now youre going to have to heal, but now you know not to do it again. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
12Network Posted June 17, 2017 Author Share Posted June 17, 2017 Maybe it's the day...I feel the same today... Didn't cry for almost two weeks, started to feel better but today it's sososo bad. I hope it's gonna be better tomorrow... and I wish the same for you! I'm sorry you're dealing with this too! Hopefully tomorrow will be better Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
12Network Posted June 17, 2017 Author Share Posted June 17, 2017 First off - ((hugs)) im sorry you're dealing with this. You lost hope in something you didn't fully realize you were stil holing onto. That hurts and that's ok, but letting it go will do you better in the long run. Second - avoid peeking from here on out. It's kinda like touching a hot stove. You got burned, it hurts and now youre going to have to heal, but now you know not to do it again. Thank you for your reply. You're right, I will not check it anymore. It's hard because I still have to see him again. He's coming back here for 2 weeks in July and some sometime when he's back he has to come pick up all his stuff from our apartment. He still hasn't told me when he's going to be in Canada though. After I saw he was moving got really upset and emailed him and asked when he was coming for his stuff but he hasn't replied. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dominique Posted June 17, 2017 Share Posted June 17, 2017 Avoid peeking. It just opens the scar. I'm sorry you're hurting. It's because you care. Take heart in the fact that you have a warm, caring, loving heart. That's a wonderful thing. Protect your heart. Don't feed it things it doesn't need to see. ((Hugs)) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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