bbogdanov Posted June 3, 2017 Share Posted June 3, 2017 - 6 months after breakup - The longest period of NC I managed to achieve: a little bit over 3 weeks (yeah, sucker...) - Constant checking up on my ex in Viber, I just can't/don't want to delete/block/forget Everytime she changes her picture, I feel like complete mess. The moment I see her - I get hot flashes, I feel sad/depressed, memories come back, etc. I see a person I shared my life with so distant now... I see her like some GODDESS (ugh). Now she is on a vacation at the Canary Islands for 10 days (she had never left the country before). Why am I saying this? TWO things: - It makes me angry; While we were together, she never had so much time to spend with me for a vacation or something like that, we were always in a "hurry" because of her own business; I feel like fool - It makes me sad; I see her now living a "new" life, free and happy; I am sad because I feel like I was the reason for her being miserable while we were together; Now that she is free from this "burden" (me), she is enjoying life and discovering new things I am too still comparing the two of us and feel like s**t. Usually I have a high opinion of myself, I am far from perfect but I think I am a decent person. But when it comes to her, just thinking about her or seeing her new picture makes me feel completely useless. The breakup damaged my self-esteem so bad that I don't know if I will be ever able to get over her. The fact that she had always been good with me yet fell out of love makes me feel very miserable. I think of myself as unworthy of being loved. What do I do? Link to comment
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