Anyone Else Having a Tough Weekend? Post Here Please

[Dominique]

holidays and long weekend are hard. i thought we could come together virtually and support each other this weekend as we honor our fallen soldiers on this memorial day holiday. please vent and share. don't feel bad if you feel pitiful.....somehow we will survive this. i just know it.

 

so here's mine:

 

i just got back from playing volleyball.... something new i started to help keep my mind occupied with healthy things. my son and i had a good time together and he was so proud of me. i miss my Luv so much and can not tell you how much i wish we were doing these things together. i wish he and his kids could join us.

 

i have divorce papers to review this week and more crap to deal with because my husband is dragging this thing out. i have nothing to look forward to for myself...my grown up self, not my "mommy" self. between work being awful and the divorce and the empty cold pillow next to mine at night, i just pray for strength. my heart aches a lot of the time but i am still standing somehow and i am thankful for that because my son needs me.

 

it seems no matter how busy i am, if i stop to blink for a second....here come tears.

[Annia]

I'm sending you lots of love and strength. Weekends are specially tough. It's difficult not to think about what they're doing at the moment. It's very important to switch those thoughts when we catch ourselves in them. I'm trying too... it's a process.

 

(((hugs)))

[Dominique]

I'm sending you lots of love and strength. Weekends are specially tough. It's difficult not to think about what they're doing at the moment. It's very important to switch those thoughts when we catch ourselves in them. I'm trying too... it's a process.

 

(((hugs)))

 

i don't ever think about what my Luv may be doing. i don't ever ever ever allow myself to think that ever. (did i say ever? LOL) the few days that i allowed myself to think about what he might be doing, it almost killed me. so i don't do that anymore. i more so think about how i want him with me in the moment. every once in awhile, i get a sense of him, if that makes sense. i can just kind of feel his presence or his energy....like when i know he is about to wake up for work or something like that. it's more of a gentle reminder of him. i just try to let it pass without focusing on it.

 

thanks for posting.....you make me feel so much less alone. i appreciate you mucho!

[Annia]

i don't ever think about what my Luv may be doing. i don't ever ever ever allow myself to think that ever. (did i say ever? LOL) the few days that i allowed myself to think about what he might be doing, it almost killed me. so i don't do that anymore. i more so think about how i want him with me in the moment. every once in awhile, i get a sense of him, if that makes sense. i can just kind of feel his presence or his energy....like when i know he is about to wake up for work or something like that. it's more of a gentle reminder of him. i just try to let it pass without focusing on it.

 

thanks for posting.....you make me feel so much less alone. i appreciate you mucho!

 

You're totally right, we must avoid thinking about what they're doing at all costs. And I can totally understand that "feeling the energy" thing.

 

You too have helped me a lot to cope with all this. Thank you.

[Dominique]

Terrible nightmare tonight about him . Slept for one hour and now I'm up.

[alejandro79]

It's hard not to think of them. I actually did a "get away" to my hometown. It's hard because I miss my 3 children. I pray constantly for them and her heart to get soften by god. She deserves to be loved and appreciated and I want to be that man to do ...not only for her but for my children.

This separation has been made A LOT CLOSER to my children regarding if they are biological or not.

[Dominique]

Hang in there. It's not easy

 

Why did you two separate?