jonnyboy12 Posted May 22, 2017 Share Posted May 22, 2017 6 weeks now since we broke up. Last week I was feeling pretty good, I had found out she had already moved on and yes it hurt but it gave me a kind of anger to move on. This weekend i was out with my friends, I saw them together in the club, it really hurt, i never thought it would but it did, it ruined my night. She tried to shout some abuse at me as I walked past but I ignored it. She then started whatsapping me early that morning (I didnt even know she had whatsap....) telling me she heard I had been texting another girl etc...I had started to text this girl a day after I found out about her and her new guy. I ignored the messages but again its like contact and it made me cave in and I looked at her social media...just made it worse for myself, all I can see is boys following her, her following boys, tweeting really attention seeking things etc. Shes beautiful so of course this is going to happen but I just ain't sure how to deal with it. She is shoutiing at me for texting someone yet she is meeting someone, kissing him, talking to god knows how many others after telling me all the things about never going near boys for a long time, having respect for me, loving me....all i can think is "was it all lies, was it all fake"? she was saying how she "felt sick" at the thought of me speaking to someone....does she actually hear herself? How does she think I feel? I felt physically sick seeing her with this new guy. Its such a mess. 1step forward 10 steps back. I honestly wish I could just forget about her. The truth is I still love her, more than anything, even after the crap shes put me through. All the time she tries to turn it on me, makes me feel like the bad one. She said "i cant believe you would stoop so low and already be texting someone, thats not the boy i know, thats not the boy I fell in love with" - BUT SHE IS ALREADY MEETING SOMEONE!!!???, "I only get nasty because you do" - blaming me again? "you've changed so much" - I've not changed at all?? Its unbelievable like it really is. I just want a fresh start, its so hard at this age, everythings on social media, everyone knows each other, my city isnt huge so everyone kinda knows everyone. Im just fed up, really fed up like I can't even explain it. Just want away from here. Link to comment
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