Careerchoice Posted May 21, 2017 Share Posted May 21, 2017 I've had a few triggers of my ex in the past several days. Her father contacted me through email checking in on me (diagnosed with cancer last year - 9 months in remission). I had to tell him we could no longer be in touch. I think he will respect that. I received some mail for her that couldn't be forwarded, so I mailed them to her myself. Then I went to a nightclub last night that we used to frequent religiously for many years. It was so lonely dancing by myself. Today she finally deposited a check I wrote her at the end of January. I had been checking my account online to see when she would get around to it. I notice have a really hard time with eye contact when speaking to people. I have to force myself to hold it and I know it comes off as unnatural at times. I feel like I have so much pain and I don't want people to see it in my eyes. I wish I knew a way to fix this. I have been in NC for almost 5 months. I know we'll never speak again. I have no regrets about anything in the relationship. The only regret I have is not ending it sooner. I loved her so much. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
1a1a Posted May 21, 2017 Share Posted May 21, 2017 *offers solidarity* Things that bump the scab really suck Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
reinventmyself Posted May 21, 2017 Share Posted May 21, 2017 Just keep moving forward. Be patient and it will come in time Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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