I fell off the wagon. 😒

[LordRorek]

My curiosity got the better of me and I unblocked my EX from facebook to see what she had been up too.

 

She doesn't post anything public so there was nothing new although she did leave a review for a tattoo parlor so maybe she got a tattoo.

 

I know I'm not supposed to and I know it's detrimental to the healing process but sometimes my curiosity gets the better of me.

 

I feel annoyed with myself when I do though like it's a sign of weakness or a lack of self-control.

[Fracturedheart]

I know exactly what you mean man. I am going through the same thing as you. I'm in NC but can't help checking up on Facebook either. Her account is private.

 

I recently saw something that's really put me down.

[LordRorek]

I know exactly what you mean man. I am going through the same thing as you. I'm in NC but can't help checking up on Facebook either. Her account is private.

 

I recently saw something that's really put me down.

 

What did you see?

[Fracturedheart]

That she is seeing someone else

[LordRorek]

That she is seeing someone else

 

That's old news for me. Don't worry about it. If it didn't happen then it simply wasn't meant to be. ☺

[Dominique]

It happens to all of us. Don't worry about it. Deal with how you feel and remember that feeling next time you want to go look. That's the only thing that keeps me from looking. I can't stomach being any more hurt than I already am. I might have a nervous breakdown.

 

Try to put your heart first. Protect your heart. You can't protect your heart giving in to feelings of nostalgia.

[melancholy123]

Go back to no contact and blocking and try harder to not fall off the wagon again. You know how much that hurts, so dont do it.

[LordRorek]

It happens to all of us. Don't worry about it. Deal with how you feel and remember that feeling next time you want to go look. That's the only thing that keeps me from looking. I can't stomach being any more hurt than I already am. I might have a nervous breakdown.

 

Try to put your heart first. Protect your heart. You can't protect your heart giving in to feelings of nostalgia.

Yeah I know.

 

I have just always been a very curious person, given the choice between the red pill and the blue pill I would choose the red pill every time. LOL

 

I just get curious about how she is doing and what is going in her life.

 

But I feel like I'm getting better it used to be every day then every week now it's every month or two.

 

So progress? LOL

[Careerchoice]

Don't judge yourself. Just make today the day that you start the streak of not looking ever again. You'll get there. It's gonna happen.

[LordRorek]

Don't judge yourself. Just make today the day that you start the streak of not looking ever again. You'll get there. It's gonna happen.

 

Aww, thank you for your kind words.😊

[Dominique]

Yeah I know.

 

I have just always been a very curious person, given the choice between the red pill and the blue pill I would choose the red pill every time. LOL

 

I just get curious about how she is doing and what is going in her life.

 

But I feel like I'm getting better it used to be every day then every week now it's every month or two.

 

So progress? LOL

 

I understand. Trust me. I do.

[LonelyJedi]

I did the same thing 9 days ago (when I started my NC log).

 

I had a relapse and allowed myself to rip the scab up and undo some of my healing. It is normal for us to relapse. We're all human and this is part of the process. In fact, it would be surprising if we didn't relapse from time to time.

 

Now just make conscious efforts to not look her up again.

For instance, I created a script on my computer that will automatically shut down my computer if I go to my ex's FB profile. That'll teach me lol.

[johnnydanger]

Facebook is such a pathetic platform imo. I hate it, but it's like a necessary evil. I only manage a page with a completely anonymous account, but still get tempted from time to time to search the profiles of exes. These people are so stupid, they can't even properly lock down their privacy settings so that non friends can't see their photos. It's amazing how much personal info you can find about total strangers with just a no name account, no wonder the privacy concerns.

 

What I do is deactivate my account for periods of time. It's futile though, and the only real solution is to delete the account.

[ESOTSM]

I did the same thing 9 days ago (when I started my NC log).

 

I had a relapse and allowed myself to rip the scab up and undo some of my healing. It is normal for us to relapse. We're all human and this is part of the process. In fact, it would be surprising if we didn't relapse from time to time.

 

Now just make conscious efforts to not look her up again.

For instance, I created a script on my computer that will automatically shut down my computer if I go to my ex's FB profile. That'll teach me lol.

 

That's brilliant

[Annia]

Don't worry, it's perfectly normal. Some time ago I "fb stalked" my ex's girlfriend and I felt very distressed. What's important is that you continue your healing process and avoid doing it again.